AdminAssistant
12-01-2008, 08:19 PM
It's the end of the semester, that panic period between Thanksgiving and Christmas that just makes life...ICKY. So here are the problems:
1. My parents are being incredibly stupid and it's driving me crazy. Since we've taken away the pain pills, sleeping pills, and Xanex dad was abusing, he's started drinking again. He was drunk through most of Thanksgiving. I'm not talking about having a drink to unwind each night. I'm talking starting in the morning and going all day alcoholism. My mother isn't trying to put a stop to it, instead she's being really submissive and just dealing with it. I honestly wish they'd just get a divorce and stop making each other (and everyone else) miserable. Technically, there's not really anything I can do about this, but it's a worry.
2. School. OMG. Kicking my ass all over the place. There's just so much to juggle and I don't feel like I can do it anymore. I just feel like an utter failure. The other grads have told me that what I'm feeling is totally normal for my first semester, but the stress level is really starting to affect me. I swing between being so nauseous the thought of food is repungent to stress-eating everything in sight.
3. Love life. I've been dating someone, but he's taking less and less interest lately. He was supposed to be in town Saturday (when I got back), and I was really looking forward to seeing him. But he stayed at his parents' another night. Yesterday, I sent him a text and got no response. So I called him and left a message that said, basically, if he wants to talk to me to call. I'm not calling again. I'm putting too much effort into this and not getting enough of a return. But it's still upsetting, because I thought at first that he was really into me, and now I'm being very self-critical and my self-confidence is taking a major nose dive.
And I'm really broke and I'm going to have to put Christmas presents on my credit card. I actually dread Christmas, because I don't want to go home to deal with my dysfunctional family. I had a mini-breakdown last night, but I feel like a full blown attack is in the near future if something doesn't give.
Just ranting and blowing off steam....don't know what else to do. :(
1. My parents are being incredibly stupid and it's driving me crazy. Since we've taken away the pain pills, sleeping pills, and Xanex dad was abusing, he's started drinking again. He was drunk through most of Thanksgiving. I'm not talking about having a drink to unwind each night. I'm talking starting in the morning and going all day alcoholism. My mother isn't trying to put a stop to it, instead she's being really submissive and just dealing with it. I honestly wish they'd just get a divorce and stop making each other (and everyone else) miserable. Technically, there's not really anything I can do about this, but it's a worry.
2. School. OMG. Kicking my ass all over the place. There's just so much to juggle and I don't feel like I can do it anymore. I just feel like an utter failure. The other grads have told me that what I'm feeling is totally normal for my first semester, but the stress level is really starting to affect me. I swing between being so nauseous the thought of food is repungent to stress-eating everything in sight.
3. Love life. I've been dating someone, but he's taking less and less interest lately. He was supposed to be in town Saturday (when I got back), and I was really looking forward to seeing him. But he stayed at his parents' another night. Yesterday, I sent him a text and got no response. So I called him and left a message that said, basically, if he wants to talk to me to call. I'm not calling again. I'm putting too much effort into this and not getting enough of a return. But it's still upsetting, because I thought at first that he was really into me, and now I'm being very self-critical and my self-confidence is taking a major nose dive.
And I'm really broke and I'm going to have to put Christmas presents on my credit card. I actually dread Christmas, because I don't want to go home to deal with my dysfunctional family. I had a mini-breakdown last night, but I feel like a full blown attack is in the near future if something doesn't give.
Just ranting and blowing off steam....don't know what else to do. :(