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marty
02-26-2009, 05:03 AM
My best friend is leaving in two days, moving states away. He's acting completely nonchalant about it.

And I'm not sure what I feel now, but I think it's something like indescribably bitter.

I really need someone right now but everyone's asleep. No one's going to come over. It's always the moments that I need someone the most that no one's around. So what do I do? I've never been so frustrated and helpless before that it physically hurts. I've got so much emotion that I don't know what to call and I don't know how to control it.

I mean, jesus, I've never punched myself in the head before. I know it's going to be the whole spiel about, oh, some people just don't show emotion when they feel it, that's why he seems like he doesn't care. But all I got was a fucking hug and a bye. Not a good talk, nothing. I feel cheated. I feel like a throwaway, maybe. Like all these years I wasn't much.

God, I want to go back to feeling nothing again.

RetailWorkhorse
02-26-2009, 05:39 AM
Maybe he feels that he'll still see you all the time. :shrug:

Or, uh, you could try calling him up and asking.