Life is a sick fucking joke

[Rantsylvania 6-5000]

It feels like life takes all my effort and energy, and gives nothing in return. I'm fucking exhausted. I can't do the simplest things lately. And I feel trapped again. That's really all I can say right now.

[Rapscallion]

Spoken to your doctor?

Rapscallion

[Arcus]

See a doctor if you can. I've felt that way since I was let go from work. I know that for me that it's depression that is causing it. Treatment has helped get me back on my feet.

[Rantsylvania 6-5000]

I'm feeling better now. Allow me to elaborate: I do suffer from depression, as well as anxiety and OCD. I've been on Zoloft for about a year and a half. I've been doing really well, but recently I had to reschedule an appointment with the doctor, because I wasn't feeling well. I ran out of my meds for a couple of days, because I couldn't get a refill until I saw the doctor. Well, I woke up with the migraine from hell yesterday, so I took some migraine pills, went to the doctor, got my refills, and spent most of yesterday laying in bed, waiting for the headache to go away. Anyway, I'm rambling now, but I was without my meds while already having a bad day. I don't really like talking about my condition, but I just didn't want to deal with it alone. It was BAD, I haven't had a day like that for some time.

[Seraph]

<hugs> I know the feeling, kind of going through that set of emotions right now. Hang in there, if you need someone to talk to....give me a PMding.

[sms001]

I'm feeling better now.

"No you're not, you'll be stone dead in a moment." ---MP

Whew! SO glad you had some sort of outlet during your brief foray off meds. Amazing people on here, eh? They listen, help, and don't judge.

Are you generally susceptible to migraines? (I'm guessing so, if you had meds handy.) If so, my deepest condolences, I understand they're horrid, AND my heartiest congrats' for getting through this rough patch. Go Rants!

[Rantsylvania 6-5000]

Thanks y'all.

Regarding the migraines, yes, I get them now and then. I've been getting a lot more of them lately, because of this nasty weather. Most of them are relatively mild, but once in a while I'll get one that knocks me on my ass, like the one I had the other day. In that case, the pills just make it bearable, but not get rid of it completely.

I can't believe how dependent I am on the Zoloft to keep me stable. If I didn't have it, I'd be like I was the other day, a lot more often. I spent the entire day crying and getting irritable at everything. I was feeling guilty that I can't be there for my niece more often; I was looking around at my chaotic apartment, and wondering if I'll ever be functional enough to get it in order; I was pissed because I was tired, because (lucky me ) I also have SLEEP ISSUES! I don't know what I'm going to do about employment, because I can't deal with assholes anymore. Even if I did get a job again, I won't last long, because I WILL go off on the assholes now, and I'd be willing to lose my job just to never let them destroy me again. It's taken me a long time to recover, and I'm not about to let them steal any more of my life.