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A memoriam to my bunny, Cadwyn/Caddie. She died in her sleep tonight, at two years old. I buried her where she made her nest when she escaped outside.
I cried on and off for a few hours, but I feel better now. I told my parents I wouldn't consider getting another pet for a month, and even then I'd talk it over with them.
Didn't stop me from looking for bunnies to adopt tonight though, but I found I was looking for one that looked exactly like her, which is part of why I promised the month in the first place. I don't want to get a new rabbit and resent it for not being her.
I have very conflicted feelings about the whole thing. On one hand, for the past month I've been leaving my room by climbing onto my dresser and onto the stairs (I live in the basement), because I made the gate too tall for her to get through, and therefore, too tall for me to get through. I don't have to do that anymore. I will be able to use the bottom shelf of all of my bookshelves, which I couldn't before because she would eat them. And I have chips on my bed right now, and I don't have to go put them in a place where she can't get to them. My cat seems pretty happy about the whole thing. She hated my rabbit. She's been playing all night.
But just yesterday, I took a nap, and woke up to her sleeping next to me. She would give me kisses for hours, and fall asleep in my arms. She was a teenager, in bunny years. I just cleaned her cage a few days ago, and got a new bale of hay for her. And I can't eat the dried banana chips in my room (because I'm allergic to them) but they were her favorite.
I cried on and off for a few hours, but I feel better now. I told my parents I wouldn't consider getting another pet for a month, and even then I'd talk it over with them.
Didn't stop me from looking for bunnies to adopt tonight though, but I found I was looking for one that looked exactly like her, which is part of why I promised the month in the first place. I don't want to get a new rabbit and resent it for not being her.
I have very conflicted feelings about the whole thing. On one hand, for the past month I've been leaving my room by climbing onto my dresser and onto the stairs (I live in the basement), because I made the gate too tall for her to get through, and therefore, too tall for me to get through. I don't have to do that anymore. I will be able to use the bottom shelf of all of my bookshelves, which I couldn't before because she would eat them. And I have chips on my bed right now, and I don't have to go put them in a place where she can't get to them. My cat seems pretty happy about the whole thing. She hated my rabbit. She's been playing all night.
But just yesterday, I took a nap, and woke up to her sleeping next to me. She would give me kisses for hours, and fall asleep in my arms. She was a teenager, in bunny years. I just cleaned her cage a few days ago, and got a new bale of hay for her. And I can't eat the dried banana chips in my room (because I'm allergic to them) but they were her favorite.
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