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So, as a few know, this week has been just... ridiculously bad for me. The worst of which is finding out that my grandmother, who has been going through chemo, is deteriorating. I had no idea, I'd been calling her up every other day to find out how she was doing, and she'd been telling me she was slowly getting better.
Well, come to find out, she's not. And she'd been keeping me away from talking to my uncle, who would've told me this.
I've not seen her in over a decade at this point, and she has not seen my children either. Part of why I've been calling and asking about her was to find out when she'd be okay with us coming to visit. She has been extremely agitated over that matter, doesn't want us to see her like this, and we've acceded to her wishes.
Well, things are getting very, very bad, they're going for IV chemo now, and don't think she'll survive the treatment. I'm making videos of the kids at this point, of them just talking to the camera and telling her how their day is going, and having them show her their favorite toys, sing to her, and whatnot....going to make a DVD of it and mail it out this weekend.
Please, if you can, pray, send good thoughts, whatever. I want her to get better, but if that's not possible, I want her to change her mind, and let us come to visit. Just....I've had guilt for years (that's only just finally been abating) about not seeing her. If this happens....I don't know. I just don't know.
Well, come to find out, she's not. And she'd been keeping me away from talking to my uncle, who would've told me this.
I've not seen her in over a decade at this point, and she has not seen my children either. Part of why I've been calling and asking about her was to find out when she'd be okay with us coming to visit. She has been extremely agitated over that matter, doesn't want us to see her like this, and we've acceded to her wishes.
Well, things are getting very, very bad, they're going for IV chemo now, and don't think she'll survive the treatment. I'm making videos of the kids at this point, of them just talking to the camera and telling her how their day is going, and having them show her their favorite toys, sing to her, and whatnot....going to make a DVD of it and mail it out this weekend.
Please, if you can, pray, send good thoughts, whatever. I want her to get better, but if that's not possible, I want her to change her mind, and let us come to visit. Just....I've had guilt for years (that's only just finally been abating) about not seeing her. If this happens....I don't know. I just don't know.
He is my Black Dragon (and yes, a good one) strong, protective, the guardian. I am his Silver Dragon, always by his side, shining for him, cherishing him.
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