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Losing a generation and worried
Some of you may remember I've posted in a few of my threads about being worried about my two great grandmothers. I lost one of them earlier this year. Yes, I'm an adult and even having great grandmothers at my age is amazing, but it doesn't make it any easier to lose them.
After losing the first one, it was really difficult. It was the first time in my life I'd ever lost anyone I was remotely close to. My grandmother (on my mom's side) took it very very hard. This is her mother. She's lost so much weight in the last few months that's she's dropped from a size 8 to a size 4 and sometimes a 2 depending on the brand. She's also lost several friends this year, some she's known since high school. One time when I talked to her she'd been to two funerals of close friends in one week, one of which she had to help plan because her friend had very few living relatives.
Last night, I got word that my other great grandmother is dying. This is my grandfather's mother on my mom's side. She's been in the nursing home for a couple of years now because she is no longer with us mentally. They were called to her bedside and it won't be long now. As I was typing this, I received an update that she's still struggling. She's not going quickly or peacefully.
Last night I sat hugging the stuffed owl I bought her for Christmas. I knew I would lose both great grandmas soon, but I wasn't prepared for it being so close together. I'm worried that if my grandma doesn't get help soon I'll lose her, too, but she won't see a doctor, much less a therapist to help her through the grief.
After losing the first one, it was really difficult. It was the first time in my life I'd ever lost anyone I was remotely close to. My grandmother (on my mom's side) took it very very hard. This is her mother. She's lost so much weight in the last few months that's she's dropped from a size 8 to a size 4 and sometimes a 2 depending on the brand. She's also lost several friends this year, some she's known since high school. One time when I talked to her she'd been to two funerals of close friends in one week, one of which she had to help plan because her friend had very few living relatives.
Last night, I got word that my other great grandmother is dying. This is my grandfather's mother on my mom's side. She's been in the nursing home for a couple of years now because she is no longer with us mentally. They were called to her bedside and it won't be long now. As I was typing this, I received an update that she's still struggling. She's not going quickly or peacefully.
Last night I sat hugging the stuffed owl I bought her for Christmas. I knew I would lose both great grandmas soon, but I wasn't prepared for it being so close together. I'm worried that if my grandma doesn't get help soon I'll lose her, too, but she won't see a doctor, much less a therapist to help her through the grief.
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