So over the weekend, I was in hospital. Again. Suicidal ideation, to sum it up, but also because my symptoms have been rearing their ugly head BIG TIME recently.
I did have a talk with two different psychs though, who believe that there is a likelihood of it being ADHD though, in conjunction with dysthymia and some anxiety. What differs some of my symptoms from it being anxiety-induced is that say, with concentration, someone who is anxious might zone out because they're afraid of failing again, whereas in my case, I just naturally zone out. In nearly all of my symptoms, there isn't any actual thought influencing those behaviours, it just "happens" so to speak.
Either way, I'm getting referred on to someone who specialises in Adult ADHD for a full-on assessment (I know there's no formal diagnostic test), so I'm starting to collect a history. I can also place why it's been not picked up for a while though:
-I was born in the 90's, back when the Ritalin hype was still rearing its ugly head. I was also schooled in the 90's.
-I'm female. (ADHD tends to be overlooked in girls)
-I rarely acted up in class (most of my misbehaving in class was for "minor" things, outside of class I was known to act up, but not to the same degree as the boys.)
-I was twice marked as "gifted" (how gifted was to varying degrees)
-Most of the psychs were focused on the depression/anxiety symptoms and not addressing how far back some of my symptoms went.
I've got a year planner to help me keep track of appointments and whatnot and to also give me something to scribble on if I'm bored in public. I'm going to buy a fidget toy on my next paycheck as well. (Something that's actually designated as a fidget toy, not just a koosh ball)
I did have a talk with two different psychs though, who believe that there is a likelihood of it being ADHD though, in conjunction with dysthymia and some anxiety. What differs some of my symptoms from it being anxiety-induced is that say, with concentration, someone who is anxious might zone out because they're afraid of failing again, whereas in my case, I just naturally zone out. In nearly all of my symptoms, there isn't any actual thought influencing those behaviours, it just "happens" so to speak.
Either way, I'm getting referred on to someone who specialises in Adult ADHD for a full-on assessment (I know there's no formal diagnostic test), so I'm starting to collect a history. I can also place why it's been not picked up for a while though:
-I was born in the 90's, back when the Ritalin hype was still rearing its ugly head. I was also schooled in the 90's.
-I'm female. (ADHD tends to be overlooked in girls)
-I rarely acted up in class (most of my misbehaving in class was for "minor" things, outside of class I was known to act up, but not to the same degree as the boys.)
-I was twice marked as "gifted" (how gifted was to varying degrees)
-Most of the psychs were focused on the depression/anxiety symptoms and not addressing how far back some of my symptoms went.
I've got a year planner to help me keep track of appointments and whatnot and to also give me something to scribble on if I'm bored in public. I'm going to buy a fidget toy on my next paycheck as well. (Something that's actually designated as a fidget toy, not just a koosh ball)
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