Amina, you are an inspiration. I used to think I would have loved to be a pediatric nurse or an ER nurse until my mother brought me back down to earth with "You do realize you will see children and tiny babies with unthinkable injuries, don't you? How will you feel when you see injustices done and the children go home with the people who did that to them?" After that moment of revelation, I knew I couldn't handle it. I very much admire anyone who can do it.
When I was little, my cousin was badly burned in a furnace explosion. He was in the burn unit for months getting skin grafts and recovering. I remember going to visit him once and we couldn't even get in the room--we could only see him through a glass door. It was an awful unit--I had so much respect and admiration for the nurses who deal with burns all day every day.
That said, I did read your whole post and am trying not to picture what you saw. You are an amazing nurse and your compassion is crystal clear. The level of caring you bring to your patients, all of them, is truly amazing and needed all over the country---the world really. However, you need to take care of yourself first.
I used to work in the domestic violence/sexual assault field. I worked in my job for many years until I found myself broken. I saw a shoe on the side of the road and assumed an abuser threw out his victim's shoes so she could not escape the car (it was winter). I saw a dead animal on the side of the road and KNEW it was an abuser who killed the family pet to teach his family a lesson. This is not normal. I had to get out and start thinking there was good in the world again. So I went to work in a completely different setting and have healed so much in the last year.
The reason for telling you this is, perhaps you do need a change of scenery, but maybe it's temporary. Maybe a year or so of a different kind of work will re-invigorate you and help you find your true passion. Maybe your true passion is where you are right now. A break may help you heal and decide what you really want.
I agree with the previous posters who recommended talking to the fire chief about where their employees go for help. Going to someone that law enforcement, fire fighters, and ambulance workers use is preferable as they are used to hearing these stories.
I'm praying for you, Amina. You truly are a wonderful nurse and if I or my family ever needed care, I would wish you, or a cloned version of you, were there. But please take care of yourself.
The way I see this story, well I hope it will not offend anyone. I see it as the best ending a tragedy could have. The whole family is together again where they do not feel pain and will never be separated. Good things can come out of tragedies--first responders hug their families a little tighter, families check their own smoke detectors and install some or replace the batteries, and everyone on this message board appreciates their own blessings a little more.
Sorry this is so long. And perhaps it should have been a private message. I haven't figured out my way around the site too well yet so I apologize for that.
Good luck, Amina. We're pulling for you and hope you do what you truly want to do--be that nursing or something else.
When I was little, my cousin was badly burned in a furnace explosion. He was in the burn unit for months getting skin grafts and recovering. I remember going to visit him once and we couldn't even get in the room--we could only see him through a glass door. It was an awful unit--I had so much respect and admiration for the nurses who deal with burns all day every day.
That said, I did read your whole post and am trying not to picture what you saw. You are an amazing nurse and your compassion is crystal clear. The level of caring you bring to your patients, all of them, is truly amazing and needed all over the country---the world really. However, you need to take care of yourself first.
I used to work in the domestic violence/sexual assault field. I worked in my job for many years until I found myself broken. I saw a shoe on the side of the road and assumed an abuser threw out his victim's shoes so she could not escape the car (it was winter). I saw a dead animal on the side of the road and KNEW it was an abuser who killed the family pet to teach his family a lesson. This is not normal. I had to get out and start thinking there was good in the world again. So I went to work in a completely different setting and have healed so much in the last year.
The reason for telling you this is, perhaps you do need a change of scenery, but maybe it's temporary. Maybe a year or so of a different kind of work will re-invigorate you and help you find your true passion. Maybe your true passion is where you are right now. A break may help you heal and decide what you really want.
I agree with the previous posters who recommended talking to the fire chief about where their employees go for help. Going to someone that law enforcement, fire fighters, and ambulance workers use is preferable as they are used to hearing these stories.
I'm praying for you, Amina. You truly are a wonderful nurse and if I or my family ever needed care, I would wish you, or a cloned version of you, were there. But please take care of yourself.
The way I see this story, well I hope it will not offend anyone. I see it as the best ending a tragedy could have. The whole family is together again where they do not feel pain and will never be separated. Good things can come out of tragedies--first responders hug their families a little tighter, families check their own smoke detectors and install some or replace the batteries, and everyone on this message board appreciates their own blessings a little more.
Sorry this is so long. And perhaps it should have been a private message. I haven't figured out my way around the site too well yet so I apologize for that.
Good luck, Amina. We're pulling for you and hope you do what you truly want to do--be that nursing or something else.
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