*crying/sobbing*
I had an offer to go to Oregon. That got shot down.
It's a long story, but my friend's mom said no to me being in his house (she owns it, I guess?). Apparently he has a trailer, but, like...I don't know where he's going to put it.
I have a case of the depression-driven stupids, I'm sure.
Why the hell can't I stay here? Why does it feel like everyone's saying no?
Everybody's just now getting in on fixing this. I have until the 31st.
Why do I think everything's gonna get perfect two weeks into September....when I'm long gone from SLC and it won't make a difference.
That's how God works, I guess. Makes miracles long long LONG after you need the damn things. I don't know why I deal with Him if that's all that happens to me.
Tell me why I'm alive. Tell me life is more than just getting my efforts stomped on.
I moved here needing help, asking for help. I got told I was just lazy.
Just like my entire life.
Lazy, yep! That's me! I'm never sick! (just ignore that doctor!) I'm just a sponging asshole waiting to suck your life dry of any happiness! Nevermind that I applied to get the help I need. Nevermind that I tried everything I thought I could do.
I DON'T HAVE IT ANYMORE.
I had an offer to go to Oregon. That got shot down.
It's a long story, but my friend's mom said no to me being in his house (she owns it, I guess?). Apparently he has a trailer, but, like...I don't know where he's going to put it.
I have a case of the depression-driven stupids, I'm sure.
Why the hell can't I stay here? Why does it feel like everyone's saying no?
Everybody's just now getting in on fixing this. I have until the 31st.
Why do I think everything's gonna get perfect two weeks into September....when I'm long gone from SLC and it won't make a difference.
That's how God works, I guess. Makes miracles long long LONG after you need the damn things. I don't know why I deal with Him if that's all that happens to me.
Tell me why I'm alive. Tell me life is more than just getting my efforts stomped on.
I moved here needing help, asking for help. I got told I was just lazy.
Just like my entire life.
Lazy, yep! That's me! I'm never sick! (just ignore that doctor!) I'm just a sponging asshole waiting to suck your life dry of any happiness! Nevermind that I applied to get the help I need. Nevermind that I tried everything I thought I could do.
I DON'T HAVE IT ANYMORE.
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