And I blew it. BIG TIME.
So yesterday we had two class plays (long story short, each class puts a play on for the other classes). For the second play, I was "left" by myself in a sense. (I say that because the teacher I was meant to be with was actually involved in the play and nobody gave me an idea on who I need to defer "to") And a few of the students thought it would be hilarious to disrespect me by wearing hats or hoods and then backchatting.
I totally lost my cool, yelled at them repeatedly. The Class Five teacher had to set them straight. And then afterwards, I yelled at them AGAIN when they were with the Japanese teacher. Uh-oh. (The Japanese teacher set them straight)
In the car on the way home, I felt awful and I cried.
Needless to say, today I was pulled aside and told how to do things correctly should that ever happen again. On top of that, I also received a phone call from the supervisor who is due to assess me in a few weeks. We discussed the situation AGAIN (very awkward) and we then explained it and what had happened. She then assured me that someone ELSE had done the same thing last year with the SAME class and that Class Six (my year level) is one of the trickiest classes to manage. (bear in mind that the students stay with the same teacher, so the student teacher last year had my students as Class Five, not Class Six). Also that my teacher was somewhat strict.
I'm not angry or upset at being told off. I'm just taking it in my stride and learning from it. As a result though, due to that incident, I realised that I need some more time to have a breather and that spending ALL of the NIT lessons with the kids this week is not helping me build relationships. So as a result, even though it will be expected come Term 3, I am spending tomorrow's NIT lessons with my mentor teacher or in the library (with the exception of Bothmer since I have not seen it and I am curious to learn more). If it's alright with the school principal, I may even spend some time with the learning support staff learning from them as well. (NIT=Non Instruction Time, basically specialist lessons the kids receive. Because of the nature of the school, the kids have more NIT lessons than most children, with them having NIT in Bothmer, PE, Art, Music, Recorder, Technology, Gardening and Library)
The school is definitely helping me think about resources though and trying to incorporate an environment where EVERYTHING is done for a particular reason, not just to look good. (for instance, the class studies Ancient Rome because the children at that age are becoming more familiar with a high degree of order and form) There is this puzzle in the library that I absolutely love though:
the idea is that with that particular puzzle, the children are encouraged to be more creative and think for themselves by forming individual patterns. There is an infinite selection of ideas. For me, I am also seeing practice of motor skills and the formation of patterns.
Only time will tell.