As some of you may remember, I've been going to counseling for about a year now. And I'm thinking of telling my counselor that I want to end our sessions. There's several reasons for it:
1: Financial. Even at their drastically-reduced-because-I-have-a-crappy-paycheck rate of $60 per weekly session, that $240 a month. I really could use that to finish repairing my car and get back on track with paying off my student loans.
2. Counselor is too close to my own age. I have never gotten along easily with my own peer group, as experience has taught me that a high percentage of them are immature morons (present company excepted, naturally! )I think my counselor is no more than 5 years older than me, and it makes it harder for me to take her seriously.
3. Counselor is not a good match for me. I mean, I like her alright. But she's not someone I can really open up to, and in all honesty, it's far to easy for me to deflect her questions. Sure, it's more comfortable that way, but we never really make any progress either. She seems to think that the cure for my depression is complimenting me effusively on everything I do, which simply annoys me. No, my artwork is not spectacular, it is merely mediocre and somewhat interesting. I was trained as an artist--I know the value of my own work, thank you. Paying me compliments that I know i don't deserve only makes me distrust everything else you say. Sigh.
I really would like to learn how to deal with my life better, maybe deal with some old issues that need to be put to rest, but I'm constantly broke, and not doing any better emotionally with the counselor than without one.
So...any advice?
1: Financial. Even at their drastically-reduced-because-I-have-a-crappy-paycheck rate of $60 per weekly session, that $240 a month. I really could use that to finish repairing my car and get back on track with paying off my student loans.
2. Counselor is too close to my own age. I have never gotten along easily with my own peer group, as experience has taught me that a high percentage of them are immature morons (present company excepted, naturally! )I think my counselor is no more than 5 years older than me, and it makes it harder for me to take her seriously.
3. Counselor is not a good match for me. I mean, I like her alright. But she's not someone I can really open up to, and in all honesty, it's far to easy for me to deflect her questions. Sure, it's more comfortable that way, but we never really make any progress either. She seems to think that the cure for my depression is complimenting me effusively on everything I do, which simply annoys me. No, my artwork is not spectacular, it is merely mediocre and somewhat interesting. I was trained as an artist--I know the value of my own work, thank you. Paying me compliments that I know i don't deserve only makes me distrust everything else you say. Sigh.
I really would like to learn how to deal with my life better, maybe deal with some old issues that need to be put to rest, but I'm constantly broke, and not doing any better emotionally with the counselor than without one.
So...any advice?
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