I honestly don't know how my more I can take of this
Last week was my annual review, and because of my two write ups in the last year (both legit, if not hypocritical) I was not only not getting any cost of living raise this year, I was being demoted and receiving a pay cut... Okay, I could handle that, I wasn't planning on staying there much longer anyway...
... nope, staying there a long time, because I was stupid enough to trust my academic adviser. Because I trusted him when he said that he would email me when I had the requirements to graduate... yeah, I missed the deadline to apply, so I now instead of being a short 59 days from graduating will graduate in January 2013... at which time I will be applying for accounting jobs explaining why my degree is dated 4 months after my transcript says the last day of class is (because so many places want to hire accountants who can't meet deadlines)... that is if I'm not homeless by that time, because my family will no longer help me with rent once my classes are done, so paying more rent, paying back student loans, and a 4 month wait before I can even begin to apply for jobs.
Oh, but I may be unemployed next week, because today I got caught in a no win situation, stuck on a call that went over that couldn't be handed off, so I got to do a chose your own adventure of getting in trouble for going over hours or getting in trouble for abandoning a call (I went over), which getting a write up for going over hours will be my third write up (two weeks after a bad annual review)... my odds of being gainfully employed if management chooses to pursue it, about none. Which will be the second time I've been terminated from a job.
So, let's recap, I may be in a week be looking for a job in a high unemployment market with two terminations, no degree, and an explanation for not having a degree or a really short anticipation date that only hurts me even further.
I think it is only a slight exaggeration when I say that an eternity in hell is looking tempting because then at least I would know things couldn't get any worse at that point, compared to right now where every week I am just waiting to find out how much further I am going to fall that week. I've given up on hoping for things to get better, now I just pray that things stop getting worse... hell, I'd be thrilled for things getting worse slower.
If you wish to find meaning, listen to the music not the song