I know that sounds lazy....I guess what I meant is I'm not sure if being wiped out physically or wiped out mentally is worse. In my case, probably physically; I can take a lot of mental exhaustion and abuse without killing anyone, but I get tired pretty quick from anything too physical. I can't even do yoga - I tried doing it once and by the second pose, I was sore, panting and tired. So much for yoga being relaxing. I'm not even tremendously overweight either - I'm just a weakling.
And I know stress can cause issues too - I actually thought I was developing ulcers at the call center because I had a lot of stomach pain and I was nauseous every single day. Turned out to be a big change in my monthly cycles, but still.
And sadly, I have a lot of health concerns that I cannot get treated...I'm on my mother's insurance and she won't let me see a doctor unless it's for something really clean-cut like an obvious ear infection. This is because I was sent all over the hospital as a teenager because my retarded doctor said I had either rheumatoid arthritis, lupus or connective tissue disease. Thousands of dollars worth of tests later, I found out nothing was wrong and the initial test that suggested illness was a fluke.
This has basically made my mother doubt doctors and she pretty much feels my inability to breathe properly, my physical weakness, getting tired quickly, and being exhausted every single day are just me overreacting. So I can't find out why those things happen until I am on my own and probably have my own insurance. I would love to know what makes me tired because I've tried everything to fix that - exercise, B vitamins, caffeine, iron (thought maybe I was anemic), changing my sleep schedule. Doesn't even take the edge off the exhaustion. And it's not even that my body is tired...I am capable of doing stuff, but I always feel like I didn't sleep and that makes me just begrudgingly do everything.
Good times to be had by all where I live.
And I know stress can cause issues too - I actually thought I was developing ulcers at the call center because I had a lot of stomach pain and I was nauseous every single day. Turned out to be a big change in my monthly cycles, but still.
And sadly, I have a lot of health concerns that I cannot get treated...I'm on my mother's insurance and she won't let me see a doctor unless it's for something really clean-cut like an obvious ear infection. This is because I was sent all over the hospital as a teenager because my retarded doctor said I had either rheumatoid arthritis, lupus or connective tissue disease. Thousands of dollars worth of tests later, I found out nothing was wrong and the initial test that suggested illness was a fluke.
This has basically made my mother doubt doctors and she pretty much feels my inability to breathe properly, my physical weakness, getting tired quickly, and being exhausted every single day are just me overreacting. So I can't find out why those things happen until I am on my own and probably have my own insurance. I would love to know what makes me tired because I've tried everything to fix that - exercise, B vitamins, caffeine, iron (thought maybe I was anemic), changing my sleep schedule. Doesn't even take the edge off the exhaustion. And it's not even that my body is tired...I am capable of doing stuff, but I always feel like I didn't sleep and that makes me just begrudgingly do everything.
Good times to be had by all where I live.
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