My housemate is one of my close friends, and he's moved in with the BF and I (at our invitation) because he's struggling with depression and can't cope with living alone. Most of the time it's fine - it's nice for BF to have someone around in the evenings when I work late, and they have a few interests in common; Housemate and I get on pretty well, and we'll often game/craft/do stuff together. I'm one of the few people who can make Housemate feel better, which is partly why he moved in. He likes doing things with me, and likes having someone around who will just listen and be able to talk things through with him. I have depression myself and I think having someone who understands has really helped. He's usually a really good housemate and we get on pretty well.
However, I'm struggling with his passive-aggressive moods at the moment. If I reject an idea (through perfectly valid reasons), I feel like I've kicked a puppy. I know I can't be responsible for anyone else's moods, and I do remind myself of that, but it doesn't help the fact that I am responsible! To clarify, we don't argue and there's never any direct blame - he just goes and mopes, or won't talk to us. I don't think he's doing it deliberately - I don't think he really has any idea that he's being passive-aggressive - and it is pretty hard to conceal moods when you live with someone who's both depressed themselves and a pretty good empath (aka. me), so I don't think he's doing this to be vindictive.
I had an incident yesterday where he suggested going away (we're both history nuts and he wants to visit some ruins) and fixed on a particular date which doesn't work for me, but of course he took it as "you're rejecting my idea" and got miserable, and I then had to over-compensate to convince him I did want to go. The incident that has put the icing on the cake was that he cooked breakfast today as a thank-you for BF and I, so it was a really nice gesture. I ended up walking away in tears because I really didn't want any, but couldn't work out how to tell him without getting the kicked-puppy treatment or making him feel rejected. Obviously that then made him feel worse and I've been getting little comments all day about how shitty a day he's having - not actively directed at me, but obviously my behaviour this morning caused it. I know that I should have simply said that I didn't want anything, but I feel caught between a rock and a hard place as either way, I'll feel guilty for not eating the damn breakfast. (He didn't ask before he made it, otherwise I would have had a gracious get-out.)
Has anyone got any suggestions for what I can do, either in terms of making him understand how his behaviour is affecting me, or in terms of my reaction to his behaviour?
However, I'm struggling with his passive-aggressive moods at the moment. If I reject an idea (through perfectly valid reasons), I feel like I've kicked a puppy. I know I can't be responsible for anyone else's moods, and I do remind myself of that, but it doesn't help the fact that I am responsible! To clarify, we don't argue and there's never any direct blame - he just goes and mopes, or won't talk to us. I don't think he's doing it deliberately - I don't think he really has any idea that he's being passive-aggressive - and it is pretty hard to conceal moods when you live with someone who's both depressed themselves and a pretty good empath (aka. me), so I don't think he's doing this to be vindictive.
I had an incident yesterday where he suggested going away (we're both history nuts and he wants to visit some ruins) and fixed on a particular date which doesn't work for me, but of course he took it as "you're rejecting my idea" and got miserable, and I then had to over-compensate to convince him I did want to go. The incident that has put the icing on the cake was that he cooked breakfast today as a thank-you for BF and I, so it was a really nice gesture. I ended up walking away in tears because I really didn't want any, but couldn't work out how to tell him without getting the kicked-puppy treatment or making him feel rejected. Obviously that then made him feel worse and I've been getting little comments all day about how shitty a day he's having - not actively directed at me, but obviously my behaviour this morning caused it. I know that I should have simply said that I didn't want anything, but I feel caught between a rock and a hard place as either way, I'll feel guilty for not eating the damn breakfast. (He didn't ask before he made it, otherwise I would have had a gracious get-out.)
Has anyone got any suggestions for what I can do, either in terms of making him understand how his behaviour is affecting me, or in terms of my reaction to his behaviour?
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