So, I have an issue, and wanted to just get some opinions on it from other people, to see if this really does look as ugly to others as it does to me.
I just purchased my first (and hopefully only) house on Thursday of last week, after looking for most of a year, and finally finding and putting in a bid back in late April.
I didn't have all the funds I would need to make the downpayment, so I asked my parents if they could 'gift' me the rest of the cash for the house. So they did, and I got everything together, and we closed without a hitch.
Now, I'd been living in a one-bedroom apartment, by myself, for almost 8 years by now. And as I'm sure most of you who've done that kind of thing are aware, things tend to... pile up. Not to a ridiculous degree, but far more stuff than one ever really thinks about until it comes time to move. So I hired a moving company, and they came out Monday to help me move the furniture, and the stuff I had boxed. I still have a week or so until my lease at the apartment is up, so I planned to spend that time getting the rest of my stuff, mainly books and clothes, things that were _not_ a first-priority when packing boxes.
As always seems to happen, I forgot to have the moving company load three things I should have had them get: my bicycle, a dvd shelf, and a tall halogen lamp. My parents (who have been in and out of town for the last month and a half, leaving me to do everything myself) came over to help me move those three things. And when they saw the remains of things in my apartment, my father blew up at me, and told me he couldn't believe I had THAT much stuff I hadn't packed in boxes. I told him that I wasn't going to just leave it, that I was going to get everything either dumped in the trash, or moved to the house. His reply? "It's physically IMPOSSIBLE for you to do that." Um, what?
Then, to rub salt in the wound, he goes on to say "I didn't raise you to be like this." Which is rich, coming from a man who, to this day, has one bedroom in his house stuffed full of stuff that stacked five feet high, collects newspapers like they were lined with gold, and has only a narrow path through the front living room of the house, because it is also filled with stacks and stacks of books and other things.
He then goes out and drives off, leaving my mother and me behind, dumps the three things I'd asked for his help with at my house and leaves them there. I nearly had a breakdown over this with my mother, and eventually just got my car loaded up, took her home, and then came home myself.
I went out to dinner a bit later, and come back to a message from my father, that he feels that I should have been having him and mom help me the last two days while they're in town, and that they would cancel their trip they're leaving on tomorrow to help me, but for some reason he can't figure out I don't want their help. That if he'd seen my apartment he'd never have given me the money for the house, that my house will be just as cluttered in a year's time. That me buying a new dining table, with the money I had left over, was a big "Fuck you!" to him and my mother, because they didn't think I needed one.
Then he really went for a low blow, and brought up the trouble I had when I went away to college for my freshman year, and wound up with a stark case of depression. He said that he has barely believed me since then, and that this just reinforced that belief. That there's no way I can get all that stuff cleaned out before time, and that I'll be paying thousands for them to re-carpet the apartment. Of course, had he asked, I could have told him that they always replace the carpet in apartments that go vacant, as I see them out there almost every month re-carpeting, and I doubt that they charge every tenant moving out for it.
Then as a final passive-aggressive move, he ends with "If I'm lucky, I'll die in my sleep tonight."
I'm just so furious over this, it is getting hard for me to think straight. I have never asked him for ANYTHING in 8 years. I've made so, scrimped and saved, and kept my bills paid and a roof over my head by my own efforts. I am half-convinced that part of the reason that I let the cleaning and such go in my apartment and let so much clutter build up was a return of the depression I faced when I was in college. The other half of me is so relieved to be out of that place, because I have so many bad memories of things that I went through over the last 8 years there.
So here's the issue at hand: I did promise to pay him back the money he loaned me for the house. But aside from that... I feel absolutely ZERO desire to ever see his face again right now. That if he's going to treat me like that, I don't need him in my life dragging me down. I'll go to his house while they're out of town, get the things of mine that are still there, and never darken his presence again.
I just purchased my first (and hopefully only) house on Thursday of last week, after looking for most of a year, and finally finding and putting in a bid back in late April.
I didn't have all the funds I would need to make the downpayment, so I asked my parents if they could 'gift' me the rest of the cash for the house. So they did, and I got everything together, and we closed without a hitch.
Now, I'd been living in a one-bedroom apartment, by myself, for almost 8 years by now. And as I'm sure most of you who've done that kind of thing are aware, things tend to... pile up. Not to a ridiculous degree, but far more stuff than one ever really thinks about until it comes time to move. So I hired a moving company, and they came out Monday to help me move the furniture, and the stuff I had boxed. I still have a week or so until my lease at the apartment is up, so I planned to spend that time getting the rest of my stuff, mainly books and clothes, things that were _not_ a first-priority when packing boxes.
As always seems to happen, I forgot to have the moving company load three things I should have had them get: my bicycle, a dvd shelf, and a tall halogen lamp. My parents (who have been in and out of town for the last month and a half, leaving me to do everything myself) came over to help me move those three things. And when they saw the remains of things in my apartment, my father blew up at me, and told me he couldn't believe I had THAT much stuff I hadn't packed in boxes. I told him that I wasn't going to just leave it, that I was going to get everything either dumped in the trash, or moved to the house. His reply? "It's physically IMPOSSIBLE for you to do that." Um, what?
Then, to rub salt in the wound, he goes on to say "I didn't raise you to be like this." Which is rich, coming from a man who, to this day, has one bedroom in his house stuffed full of stuff that stacked five feet high, collects newspapers like they were lined with gold, and has only a narrow path through the front living room of the house, because it is also filled with stacks and stacks of books and other things.
He then goes out and drives off, leaving my mother and me behind, dumps the three things I'd asked for his help with at my house and leaves them there. I nearly had a breakdown over this with my mother, and eventually just got my car loaded up, took her home, and then came home myself.
I went out to dinner a bit later, and come back to a message from my father, that he feels that I should have been having him and mom help me the last two days while they're in town, and that they would cancel their trip they're leaving on tomorrow to help me, but for some reason he can't figure out I don't want their help. That if he'd seen my apartment he'd never have given me the money for the house, that my house will be just as cluttered in a year's time. That me buying a new dining table, with the money I had left over, was a big "Fuck you!" to him and my mother, because they didn't think I needed one.
Then he really went for a low blow, and brought up the trouble I had when I went away to college for my freshman year, and wound up with a stark case of depression. He said that he has barely believed me since then, and that this just reinforced that belief. That there's no way I can get all that stuff cleaned out before time, and that I'll be paying thousands for them to re-carpet the apartment. Of course, had he asked, I could have told him that they always replace the carpet in apartments that go vacant, as I see them out there almost every month re-carpeting, and I doubt that they charge every tenant moving out for it.
Then as a final passive-aggressive move, he ends with "If I'm lucky, I'll die in my sleep tonight."
I'm just so furious over this, it is getting hard for me to think straight. I have never asked him for ANYTHING in 8 years. I've made so, scrimped and saved, and kept my bills paid and a roof over my head by my own efforts. I am half-convinced that part of the reason that I let the cleaning and such go in my apartment and let so much clutter build up was a return of the depression I faced when I was in college. The other half of me is so relieved to be out of that place, because I have so many bad memories of things that I went through over the last 8 years there.
So here's the issue at hand: I did promise to pay him back the money he loaned me for the house. But aside from that... I feel absolutely ZERO desire to ever see his face again right now. That if he's going to treat me like that, I don't need him in my life dragging me down. I'll go to his house while they're out of town, get the things of mine that are still there, and never darken his presence again.
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