I honestly don't know where to put this, and part of that is also the problem itself. I will try to explain, but depending.. it could end up being just nonsense.
Not long ago, I experienced something that terrified me to death. A half of a day just.. gone. I have NO idea where I was, what I was doing, or why. But it gets worse .. in a way. For three hours me and my step brother.. and thought things were going good. He sat there, and I could see concern on his face, and finally he told me why. I had been calling him by my cousins name THE WHOLE TIME. I am losing myself, I can see it, I can feel it, and I can not do a thing about it. Any doctor I talk to about it.. just says "Take more Lactolous (spelling)" If I take any more I could take a bath in it!
It is terrifying to feel myself slipping away. To KNOW that I am slipping away more every day. To know I am powerless to stop it, reverse it, or heck even slow it down. So far I can remember names and such.. especially if I have known them for a long time. I just don't know when I will look at somebody and not know who they are. I feel trapped with a mind that is shutting down. I have no clue what I can do, because even if somebody makes a suggestion.. I will have forgotten it shortly after. Just had to get this off my chest. Before I forget anything else..
Not long ago, I experienced something that terrified me to death. A half of a day just.. gone. I have NO idea where I was, what I was doing, or why. But it gets worse .. in a way. For three hours me and my step brother.. and thought things were going good. He sat there, and I could see concern on his face, and finally he told me why. I had been calling him by my cousins name THE WHOLE TIME. I am losing myself, I can see it, I can feel it, and I can not do a thing about it. Any doctor I talk to about it.. just says "Take more Lactolous (spelling)" If I take any more I could take a bath in it!
It is terrifying to feel myself slipping away. To KNOW that I am slipping away more every day. To know I am powerless to stop it, reverse it, or heck even slow it down. So far I can remember names and such.. especially if I have known them for a long time. I just don't know when I will look at somebody and not know who they are. I feel trapped with a mind that is shutting down. I have no clue what I can do, because even if somebody makes a suggestion.. I will have forgotten it shortly after. Just had to get this off my chest. Before I forget anything else..
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