So...I need help. Hell, I need lots of help in more ways than one, but I won't bore you with a trip inside the hamster cemetery that is my mind (um--I should explain. A long time ago someone made a comment about my "hamster falling off the wheel" and I responded back with something along the lines of "fallen? The little fucker had a massive heart attack and died so now there's a furry lump rotting away in my brain." Remember--I'm in charge of your children )
Basically my skin is way too thin.
*I read into things too much and little slights really upset me.
*I can't let things go and assume others can't either.
*I worry too much about insignificant things.
*I have trouble communicating my feelings, mostly fears, to my loved ones.
*I cry too much...not as a defense mechanism, not as a manipulation tool, but because there's some big emotional block in my throat and I can't, just can't, get around it without crying. I've been in the middle of a conversation about something when I was stressed/upset and the tears just start so I get even more frustrated and I feel like and asshole.
*I tend to pick up the emotions of the people I'm talking to...especially my students. There have been times when I've talked to a kid after class or after school and I just feel overwhelmingly depressed, or I want to cry and it's not because I'm unhappy, but because there is something going on with the kid's life.
There's mountains more that I wish I could just spill, but right now I'm even worried that you, Darling Reader, are laughing at my post telling your computer screen to stop being such a little bitch and suck it up.
I wish I could.
(And I know that isn't the case, but again with the crazy insecurities when it comes to my feelings)
Are there any tips or techniques for growing a thicker skin? Is there anything I can do so maybe one day I'll be a little less crazy? Or should I just embrace my craziness and hope that one day I'll become numb enough to just not care anymore.
Basically my skin is way too thin.
*I read into things too much and little slights really upset me.
*I can't let things go and assume others can't either.
*I worry too much about insignificant things.
*I have trouble communicating my feelings, mostly fears, to my loved ones.
*I cry too much...not as a defense mechanism, not as a manipulation tool, but because there's some big emotional block in my throat and I can't, just can't, get around it without crying. I've been in the middle of a conversation about something when I was stressed/upset and the tears just start so I get even more frustrated and I feel like and asshole.
*I tend to pick up the emotions of the people I'm talking to...especially my students. There have been times when I've talked to a kid after class or after school and I just feel overwhelmingly depressed, or I want to cry and it's not because I'm unhappy, but because there is something going on with the kid's life.
There's mountains more that I wish I could just spill, but right now I'm even worried that you, Darling Reader, are laughing at my post telling your computer screen to stop being such a little bitch and suck it up.
I wish I could.
(And I know that isn't the case, but again with the crazy insecurities when it comes to my feelings)
Are there any tips or techniques for growing a thicker skin? Is there anything I can do so maybe one day I'll be a little less crazy? Or should I just embrace my craziness and hope that one day I'll become numb enough to just not care anymore.
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