How to start. I was lonely. Key word being WAS. After burning jealousy at all my friends for having girlfriends/boyfriends, I just gave up. I figured ya know, girls said no to me enough times that I was destined to not have anybody in my life.
I kind of thought of that scene from Family guy where the two guys swear off woman for ever and become super billionares, but have sex with bagels. I figured I'd be rich and famous, sans bagels.
Now I have had several girls looks and numbers after I stopped looking, but i can't date them.
Case in point:
At movie theatre, playing air hockey before movie. Girl is behind me, staring at my ass. I have no ass but whatever. I smiled at her, and she smile bigger at me.
She played a game with me and we talked.
Then she mentioned she was 16. Then walked off with her boyfriend.
At Applebees eating dinner with a few friends. Waiteress is smiiling at me, and when she went to the table, she'd only ask ME if we wanted anything, and would walk off before my friends could answer. WOuld /berat/ my friends when they started poking at me and we're doing our normal routine of who can insult the other better.
Over heard later when she's talking to another customer that she was married.
My co-worker. Which I have posted several times.
Few girl customers have smiled deeply, some bowed a little too much. Moist leave their recipts that have their numbers on them.
I even had a few male customers do that.
So, I don't want this, frankly I hate mysellf too much still to put it through anyone. But its alot different then from before where the major thing I hated was jealousy of seeing everyone with someone to share livies with, and me empty.
Goes to show, you can't always get what you want. Should I stay the way I am, or what? Frankly I'd go out with any of these girls, but the bulk are married, underage, or seem to be lusting after me. (Which that I don't get. Maybe lust after my feelings??).
I kind of thought of that scene from Family guy where the two guys swear off woman for ever and become super billionares, but have sex with bagels. I figured I'd be rich and famous, sans bagels.
Now I have had several girls looks and numbers after I stopped looking, but i can't date them.
Case in point:
At movie theatre, playing air hockey before movie. Girl is behind me, staring at my ass. I have no ass but whatever. I smiled at her, and she smile bigger at me.
She played a game with me and we talked.
Then she mentioned she was 16. Then walked off with her boyfriend.
At Applebees eating dinner with a few friends. Waiteress is smiiling at me, and when she went to the table, she'd only ask ME if we wanted anything, and would walk off before my friends could answer. WOuld /berat/ my friends when they started poking at me and we're doing our normal routine of who can insult the other better.
Over heard later when she's talking to another customer that she was married.
My co-worker. Which I have posted several times.
Few girl customers have smiled deeply, some bowed a little too much. Moist leave their recipts that have their numbers on them.
I even had a few male customers do that.
So, I don't want this, frankly I hate mysellf too much still to put it through anyone. But its alot different then from before where the major thing I hated was jealousy of seeing everyone with someone to share livies with, and me empty.
Goes to show, you can't always get what you want. Should I stay the way I am, or what? Frankly I'd go out with any of these girls, but the bulk are married, underage, or seem to be lusting after me. (Which that I don't get. Maybe lust after my feelings??).
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