Nothing ever seems to come from me seeing my doctor. My actual GP fobbed me off for years when I told her I had anxiety, when I actually got referred by a GP at the same practice for therapy, I was left twiddling my thumbs for about 6 months (I actually quit therapy last week as after leaving me to my own devices for 2 months they were expecting me to make expensive bus journeys and move work shifts around for THEM when they could have seen me right around the corner from my workplace!! I ended up feeling that WAITING for the so-called professionals to get round to me, my life was on pause because I was too scared to do anything on my own. While it means my tokophobia and related issues will now not be treated, and I'm fucked there really, it means I'm tackling my dental and dog fears by myself and making better progress if I might say so too!)
I get an itchy ear. Old GP told me its because I have a germ in there sometimes and makes it itchy. It actually stopped for a while earlier this year because I had a massive HORRENDOUS ear infection, but started to come back and I got very itchy yesterday. And then I scratched too hard. I could feel instantly I'd hurt myself a little. Oops.
But the pain I'd caused didn't alleviate the itching, so I got out the drops, checked they were in date, and put them in last night. Everything seemed fine. Then I rolled over onto that ear in my sleep.
I woke up in the wee hours feeling very sore and a crackling popping noise going off quietly in my ear. The noise faded away but the pain remained.
My ear feels blocked but I can tell its just because everything is swollen in there. The pain comes and goes but when its there...oh its there. And going by what happened last year, it'll probably feel like agony tomorrow.
So I call the doctors, and the bitch on reception first of all interrupted me as I began to tell her I needed an appointment ("HOLD PLEASE!") and then refused to give me an appointment for tomorrow as its "not an emergency". I said 2Well, I've had these symptons before and I'm likely to be on cocodomal by tomorrow."
"But you're not on cocodomal now are you?"
I mean, I could understand if she were a teeny bit sympathetic if she said "I'm very sorry, but I can't give out tomorrow's emergency appointments today" and acted nice about it, but she acted like I was a bother. She didn't care when I said it is hurting now. I told her that its happened before, but nooo. She even acted like I was making it up when I was trying to fit an appointment AROUND work rather than book anything regardless of my work hours. Excuse me bitch, but some of us can't AFFORD to take time off work! This is why I want to see a doctor before the pain knocks me for 6 and I miss a couple of days!
If I have to miss work, I want to miss work now, not next week. If I miss any time in December I automatically lose my Christmas bonus
I fucking hate that surgery.