Paranoia...

[Coconut]

So I recently got a new job.

The most awesomest of awesome jobs. The best job of my life - thus far.

I am still in shock that I actually got it.

But now that I have it, and I love it, I keep getting this crazy feeling it's too good to be true. I have terrible fears and paranoia that someone will take it away from me. That something will happen and I'll be let go.... that they just won't like me and I'll be let go.

I've got no reason to feel like this... the only negative thing about me is that I'm often shy.

I do suffer from OCD - I have since I was a child and I'm sure that is part of these unnecessary fears.

Has anyone else ever felt like this? What can I do to ease my mind?

[gunsage]

Let me tell you something...no job is perfect. When you find a job that you think is perfect, you'll latch onto any little thing that is annoying with it, even if it's not that big of a deal. Examples follow:

My last security job. Security's generally a pretty easy job as long as you have common sense and stuff to do when there's nothing to do. I made good money, didn't barely have to do anything, and dealt only every so often with children. At first, I had absolutely nothing to complain about. I rarely ever got children and didn't really have to deal with them. I brought in my DS and PSP with my sudoku puzzles and study stuffs...there you are.

Complaint #1 - Gee, it's kinda boring. Maybe I need more stuff. Complaint #2 - They complain that I'm not at the front. Of course, they make these complaints when I'm patrolling...which is part of my job. Complaint #3 - That one deputy's kind of a jerk. Complaint #4 - It's hard to stay awake when studying.

You get the idea. It was a cake job, but I found any little thing I could to bitch about it. Now sometimes there were legitimate happenings, but again, rarely. I'll say this...you will enjoy your job. Try not to obsess about it too much and just soak it in. My last few jobs have been cake jobs and let me tell you, if I can make my next jump into a cake job, I'll do it. ;)

[Coconut]

Thanks... I'm starting to realize this job isn't as perfect as I thought it was, but it's pretty cool so far (minus ths SCs, of course).