Kiwi
02-21-2008, 04:00 PM
Hi everyone,
I dont often post alot of personal stuff but right now I dont think I have a choice. I have night terrors, I have had them since I was about 6 just after all of my major operations were done and I it kinda fucked me up in the head a little.
I dont deal well with stress and one of the main manifestations is awful awful dreams. The problem is when I wake up, I cant get back to sleep that night without being sucked back into to the same dream. I also cant tell it its reality or a dream, I think when I wake up that the things in the dream are real.
Last night - right now Im going through them, I have a big big party going on Saturday and I dont feel anywhere near ready. its 4:30am where I am, Im exhausted because every time I have falllen alseep Im thrust back into the same nightmare.
The content of the dream might not sound dramatic tonight but the feeling of sheer and utter terror is, I usually wake up drenched in sweat and vomit if its really bad.
Anywho...... Tonights dream invloved Customers Suck. I dreamt that I had brought or sold a book online to some recovering crack addict through a friends account on ebay or amazon or something. (the details on how shit has gone down is never clear) and the person was also a member of this site or their friend was.... and they were going to expose me and make everyone hate me, never talk to me again.
and the sale went belly up it was going to cost me $50 when it should have been making me $10 and the sale person started calling me the most horrible things, making disgusting threats
then I flash to seeing a bag of sausage that I have to grill, then back to the sale falling through and being blamed for the addict relasping because im such a horrible person and everyone will hate me.
ugh its was so horrible, its 5am and I still dont trust falling back asleep but im so tired, Ive been pulled back into the dream 3 times already, waking up drenched in sweat and shaking.
please tell me that no one on this site has a friend who is a recovering crack addict who is selling off their stuff on ebay or buying stuff off ebay? I honestly cant tell if it was a dream or reality, I think it was a dream, but in my dream I had conversations with my boyfriend and a co-worker so Im going to ask them.
ugh I dont know what to do! I have to go to work but im so tired. I cant call off sick and sleep the day away because what happens if I dream about it again...:(
EDIT: sorry if this is a little rambly, its 5am and im still trying to figure out if this really happened
I dont often post alot of personal stuff but right now I dont think I have a choice. I have night terrors, I have had them since I was about 6 just after all of my major operations were done and I it kinda fucked me up in the head a little.
I dont deal well with stress and one of the main manifestations is awful awful dreams. The problem is when I wake up, I cant get back to sleep that night without being sucked back into to the same dream. I also cant tell it its reality or a dream, I think when I wake up that the things in the dream are real.
Last night - right now Im going through them, I have a big big party going on Saturday and I dont feel anywhere near ready. its 4:30am where I am, Im exhausted because every time I have falllen alseep Im thrust back into the same nightmare.
The content of the dream might not sound dramatic tonight but the feeling of sheer and utter terror is, I usually wake up drenched in sweat and vomit if its really bad.
Anywho...... Tonights dream invloved Customers Suck. I dreamt that I had brought or sold a book online to some recovering crack addict through a friends account on ebay or amazon or something. (the details on how shit has gone down is never clear) and the person was also a member of this site or their friend was.... and they were going to expose me and make everyone hate me, never talk to me again.
and the sale went belly up it was going to cost me $50 when it should have been making me $10 and the sale person started calling me the most horrible things, making disgusting threats
then I flash to seeing a bag of sausage that I have to grill, then back to the sale falling through and being blamed for the addict relasping because im such a horrible person and everyone will hate me.
ugh its was so horrible, its 5am and I still dont trust falling back asleep but im so tired, Ive been pulled back into the dream 3 times already, waking up drenched in sweat and shaking.
please tell me that no one on this site has a friend who is a recovering crack addict who is selling off their stuff on ebay or buying stuff off ebay? I honestly cant tell if it was a dream or reality, I think it was a dream, but in my dream I had conversations with my boyfriend and a co-worker so Im going to ask them.
ugh I dont know what to do! I have to go to work but im so tired. I cant call off sick and sleep the day away because what happens if I dream about it again...:(
EDIT: sorry if this is a little rambly, its 5am and im still trying to figure out if this really happened