An apology

[Rahmota]

Just a bit ago I made a post in another thread here that I should not have done so. I am not having a good past few days and the comments made on the thread earlier hit a button that had been being pressed repeatedly and hard by another individual on another site. A rather lame excuse I realize butlike I said I've been under a bit of stress between the HMO arguing about a medicine my wife NEEDS, a 500$ piece of equipment going from a fine tuned precision machine to a hunk of smoking junk, my mother's cancer getting worse and the general happy happy joy joys of the season :rolleyes: I am on a tight rope emotionally speaking. I think I may need to take a few days and chill out in the real world, somehow. Maybe I should listen to Bluto's advice to Flounder.

But I was on the way back here to edit my post after calming down and realizing that I had shot my mouth off rather innappropriately when I see that Rapscallion has already and appropriatedly deleted my comment and locked the thread. I thank you for that and appreciate your promptness.

Good days and good fortunes to you all.

[NightAngel]

I'm terribly sorry for the problems you're having in your real life. I hope things get better for you soon. *hug*

It's always best when a post makes you mad to step back and calm down before you reply to it. You can always use the Report button and have the Mod/Admin team review it objectively for you.

That's what they don't pay us for! :D

[Demonoid Phenomenon]

I think we've all posted things we regretted later.
I KNOW I have. :rolleyes:

We still love you!

And now back to bad-mouthing SCs... :D

[Rahmota]

Thank you both for your kind comments. I know that my problems shouldnt be an excuse to dump or blow up on others. Also the problems and arguments I had on another site are just that another site not here. Bringing that baggage with me is not beneficial. The people here are not on the other site and I doubt they would come here anyhow. Especially the one I had the major problems with considering how he thinks there is no such thing as a wageslave and the only unemployed people are the ones too lazy or worthless to want to work. I get the feeling that he is someone who gets talked about on here a bit though as he is definately an arrogant sucky customer material. Using his moderatorial powers to win an argument he was loosing is definately not cool.

Anyhow. Since I couldnt sleep I thought I'd surf the web but it isnt really gripping me much. When you've looked at the same page 5 times in as many minutes and realized that you dont recall doing so that is not a good sign. I keep spinning in circles and getting nowhere. It feels like I've built a bridge halfway cross the river but cant get the last few yards.

I can recognize whats going onwith me right now as the depression, frustration and out and out anger at the way the universe is right now is hitting my upper limits. I need to back off and disconnect before I blow a circuit. I've only done that once before when my dad died. There are about 6 months that are just a blank. I have no recollection whatsoever of what happened. I was totally on autopilot. That would not be a good thing to do now with a family and farm to take care of.

So I'm going to take a few days and try and deflect some of this stress out of my system safely before it goes out in a bang. Try and deflate.

I dunno this entire past year has not exactly been fun, heck the past decade has been bouncing from one crisis to another with brief periods of calm in between. Hanging on to the farm by the skin of our teeth, fighting with the inlaws. Ugly fighting with them to the point where they are unpeople, same with an uncle of mine that about got his face smashed in at the family reunion and he is an unperson. Loosing some friends to life changes, the universe, a semi on a rainy night. Having two cousins involved in the fight on terror one in afghanistan another in iraq. Wife's health. Ex wife chaos. General life stuff daily. It all adds up. It just doesnt always balance out.

*sigh* I'm sorry I'm not fishing for pity or anything here. I just wanted to let you know that I am sorry I got sucky myself here. Also to give you an idea of where I come from on some of the views I have on things. I'm really not trying to be offensive and I personally don't care what -ism you are into or not. I'm just tired. Very very tired. But as long as you wake up each day the fight goes on. Thats all you can do.

Hey diddle diddle,
The cat and the fiddle,
The astronauts killed the man in the moon,
Growing up took care of the rest.........

Peace and long life to all I'll be around.:) :wave: