I need to rant about something

[Rocko]

I've been under a lot of stress lately and I need to get all this off my chest before I either develop an ulcer or blow up on someone who doesn't deserve it.

Okay, I recently moved out of my parent's house and I now live with one of my friends and his girlfriend. Besides the stress of living on my own and now having half the money because of both the rent and my car payment, I've just been a little pissed off lately. Of course that's kind of like saying that working in retail kind of sucks.

Anyways, since I've moved out, I haven't done anything. I'm stuck at home on my nights off because everyone else is either busy at work or with their girlfriends. And both my roommates have very early morning shifts, him at 5:00 am and her at 6:00 am, so they are always in bed by 9:00 pm, which leaves me with absolutely nothing to do.

Besides that, everyone of my friends seem to decide to do things on either Friday night, when I close, or in the middle of the day on Saturday, when I usually work from 11:00 am to 8:00 pm. I have Wednesday and Thursday off every week, and everyone is magically busy on those days, so I'm usually at home bored.

But wait? What about the rest of the week, you might ask. Well, I am one of two of my group of friends that is still in college, everyone else either dropped out or, in the case of one of my friends, went to film schoool and is now working. Going to school during the day means that I must work nights when, guess what, they call me about an hour before my shift starts asking if I want to hang out that night. So everyone gets a nice day job, pretty much all make more than I do, and none of it is in retail.

I'm sick of school. There I said it. Yes, I know it will open more opportunities later on, but right now I'm sick of it. Like I said before, no one else goes, and I hate the fact that they all can take it easy while I'm slaving away in classes that I don't want to take but the fucking state says I have to if I want to graduate. And I'm stuck in school until spring of 2008 because of ONE FUCKING CLASS!!! The major I am going for requires me to take four semesters of the school newspaper, and I just finished my first semester of it, and the newspaper is not available over the summer, so yeah, I have to stay there until 2008, and have been at the same community college since 2003.

So there's my rant, I could go on, but this is long enough and most of it is just repeats of the same stuff I already posted.

[BlaqueKatt]

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I feel your pain kid, really I do. Though I'm not in college my husband is, and working full time as well.

his schedule:
work sunday-thursday night 9:30pm to 6:00am
School monday-thursday 7:30am to 12 noon
Sleep-1:00pm or so until 7:00pm

My schedule:
Work Monday-friday 7:00am-3:30pm though I leave at 5:30 and get home around 4:15 or so

We don't see each other for more than an hour a night-it's 8:15pm here now he got up at 7:30, is now in the shower, and when he get out will get dressed and leave. Most of my friends are unattached and go out on the weekends for me that's the only time I have with my husband-and I'd rather be with him, but I do miss going out(he won't-too tired from his week)

[Giggle Goose]

Oh, wow, Rocko, I was reading your post and it was shocking how similar your thoughts were to my situation a while back. I, too, am graduating in spring of 08, and back when I was a freshman at my community college, I was working nights and working my ass off at school, but it still seemed like my grades were crap. I have enough credits now where I only have to take 12 credits (about 4 classes) a semester before I graduate. So now I have enough credits where I only go to class on Tuesday and Thursday; that leaves me MWF and the weekends to work, so I can have more daytime hours and hang out with my friends. See if there are any adjustments you can make to your schedule. Working at school all day, working all night.....it's just so unfair and it sucks!!!! And paying all those bills and not having the mom and dad safety net?! Oh, wow, does that take some getting used to!

If it is December, then you will probably be on winter break soon!!!! So you can relax! Believe me, the time is passing by faster than you think it is. There is so much I could say to you but you probably would not understand now, and if someone had tried to reassure me back then I probably would have said "You just don't get it." I know that you hear this a lot, but it really DOES pay off to go to college!!! Your friends might have decent jobs now, but a lot of my friends that dropped out say to me now: "Wow, I wish I had stayed. You're so lucky." There is probably little room for growth where they are at. I am not bashing people who have not gone to college. My parents never went and they had to work sooooo hard; I'm just saying that the higher you education level, the easier things are in the long run. Hang in there! I'm proud of you :) PM me if you ever want to talk.