Hi all,
I know I'm not a particularly active member here, I'm mainly a lurker, but I was hoping that some of you may be able to reassure me that I'm not going completely crazy.
I have a problem with my "brain-to-mouth" filter, particularly first thing in the morning, so it would seem. I say something then immediately regret what I've said as soon as I've walked away. For example, the following conversation happened this morning on the way to work:
OM: Older Man
Me: Guess who?
OM: Excuse me, love, is that the charity shop over there? *Points to a building*
Me: I don't know, sorry. Oh and by the way, my name's NOT "Love" - it's kind of creepy for an old man to talk to a younger girl that way.
I felt really bad afterwards, after all, he was just asking an innocent question. I just really hate being called pet names like that by someone I don't know. This isn't the only time I've been deliberately antagonistic like that, and I feel so guilty and worry about what I've done for days afterwards. Of course, I also say things like this when faced with an antagonistic person as well, so it's not as if it just happens to the innocent. I just wish I could keep my trap shut sometimes!
Anyway, sorry for the rant, but I could use either some reassurance or a kick up the backside.
Am I a horrible person? If so, is there anything I can do to make it "right"? Does anyone else suffer from this? How do you hold your tongue?
Thanks guys for your help.
I know I'm not a particularly active member here, I'm mainly a lurker, but I was hoping that some of you may be able to reassure me that I'm not going completely crazy.
I have a problem with my "brain-to-mouth" filter, particularly first thing in the morning, so it would seem. I say something then immediately regret what I've said as soon as I've walked away. For example, the following conversation happened this morning on the way to work:
OM: Older Man
Me: Guess who?
OM: Excuse me, love, is that the charity shop over there? *Points to a building*
Me: I don't know, sorry. Oh and by the way, my name's NOT "Love" - it's kind of creepy for an old man to talk to a younger girl that way.
I felt really bad afterwards, after all, he was just asking an innocent question. I just really hate being called pet names like that by someone I don't know. This isn't the only time I've been deliberately antagonistic like that, and I feel so guilty and worry about what I've done for days afterwards. Of course, I also say things like this when faced with an antagonistic person as well, so it's not as if it just happens to the innocent. I just wish I could keep my trap shut sometimes!
Anyway, sorry for the rant, but I could use either some reassurance or a kick up the backside.
Am I a horrible person? If so, is there anything I can do to make it "right"? Does anyone else suffer from this? How do you hold your tongue?
Thanks guys for your help.
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