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I don't often ask for this.
My beloved husband D (Toth, Mr Seshat) is going into surgery on Tuesday. He has neurocardiogenic syncope, which means his heart sometimes stops (well, to the 'emergency alert' level). As you can imagine, this isn't healthy.
They're putting a pacemaker in. Yes, this is now routine, ordinary surgery with an extremely low complication rate.
But D has a bad reaction to anaesthesia. His heart stops. Sometimes even worse than his usual stoppages.
So I'm TERRIFIED. And I'm being brave and strong and not showing him just HOW scared I am. But I'm running on empty, I'm so very very scared. And I love him so very, very much, and I'm afraid of losing him even though I know logically this is the best thing for him, and know that the best place to be if his heart does stop is in the hands of a cardiac surgeon, and ...
... and I NEVER write run-on sentences. So you can tell how scared I am.
Hugs and comfort and sympathy and prayers and good thoughts please.
My beloved husband D (Toth, Mr Seshat) is going into surgery on Tuesday. He has neurocardiogenic syncope, which means his heart sometimes stops (well, to the 'emergency alert' level). As you can imagine, this isn't healthy.
They're putting a pacemaker in. Yes, this is now routine, ordinary surgery with an extremely low complication rate.
But D has a bad reaction to anaesthesia. His heart stops. Sometimes even worse than his usual stoppages.
So I'm TERRIFIED. And I'm being brave and strong and not showing him just HOW scared I am. But I'm running on empty, I'm so very very scared. And I love him so very, very much, and I'm afraid of losing him even though I know logically this is the best thing for him, and know that the best place to be if his heart does stop is in the hands of a cardiac surgeon, and ...
... and I NEVER write run-on sentences. So you can tell how scared I am.
Hugs and comfort and sympathy and prayers and good thoughts please.
My thoughts are with you if you message me or not.
He is my Black Dragon (and yes, a good one) strong, protective, the guardian. I am his Silver Dragon, always by his side, shining for him, cherishing him.
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