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(Just a few notes; this was originally posted on Facebook, concerning one of my friends on there, it's a straight copy and paste, and since I put my toe in the water, I figured I might as well jump in and post it for my second family here on CS (Just FYI The person this is reffering to is, sadly, not a member of CS)
An Open Letter to those that know me: You don't, not really. Nobody does (and I mean absoloutely nobody), for about 15 years now, due to my depression and some personal beliefs and other things wrong with me, there hasn't been a "real" me, there's been a facade, a mask I put on, to fool the world, to make everyone believe everything was alright with me, when it wasn't always so. The Japanese say you have three faces.
The first face, you show to the world. The second face, you show to your close friends, and your family. The third face, you never show anyone. It is the truest reflection of who you are. Except, in my case, the first and second face have been the same facade, and the me, the real me, has been hidden away, seen by absoloutely nobody, at all, for 15 Years.
Until now.
You see, there's someone out there (and I won't be mentioning names, they know who they are) who has, for reasons unexplained, been able to draw the real me out, and not only for the first time in 15 years, made me be able to feel like myself, but also made me feel like i can be myself with them, and not be afraid of hiding from the world. With this friend, I feel like a real person for the longest time ever, I'm able to feel emotions fully, and not supress them like i have been doing most of my life.
The reason I'm taking this massive leap and revealing all this to the world is, that this friend who has done so much for me, even without meaning to, has had the misfortune of being surrounded by assholes for a lot of their life, who did nothing but drag that person down and do nothing but weigh them down. I'm saying this, so that they know just how special they are, even and especially if they can't see it, they aren't just special, they are incredible, so I'm taking this incredible leap so that they absoloutely know that. That it's not something I'm just saying to make them feel better, but that I mean it with every fiber of my being.
And so, to the person who effected me so much, you are special, wonderful and amazing, in spite of all the crap you've been through. If you ever doubt it, keep in mind, all that I've said is a secret that I have kept for 15 years, and if not for you, would have most likely kept it secret all my life.
So, yeah, you're awesome, never forget it and I'll never allow you to.
An Open Letter to those that know me: You don't, not really. Nobody does (and I mean absoloutely nobody), for about 15 years now, due to my depression and some personal beliefs and other things wrong with me, there hasn't been a "real" me, there's been a facade, a mask I put on, to fool the world, to make everyone believe everything was alright with me, when it wasn't always so. The Japanese say you have three faces.
The first face, you show to the world. The second face, you show to your close friends, and your family. The third face, you never show anyone. It is the truest reflection of who you are. Except, in my case, the first and second face have been the same facade, and the me, the real me, has been hidden away, seen by absoloutely nobody, at all, for 15 Years.
Until now.
You see, there's someone out there (and I won't be mentioning names, they know who they are) who has, for reasons unexplained, been able to draw the real me out, and not only for the first time in 15 years, made me be able to feel like myself, but also made me feel like i can be myself with them, and not be afraid of hiding from the world. With this friend, I feel like a real person for the longest time ever, I'm able to feel emotions fully, and not supress them like i have been doing most of my life.
The reason I'm taking this massive leap and revealing all this to the world is, that this friend who has done so much for me, even without meaning to, has had the misfortune of being surrounded by assholes for a lot of their life, who did nothing but drag that person down and do nothing but weigh them down. I'm saying this, so that they know just how special they are, even and especially if they can't see it, they aren't just special, they are incredible, so I'm taking this incredible leap so that they absoloutely know that. That it's not something I'm just saying to make them feel better, but that I mean it with every fiber of my being.
And so, to the person who effected me so much, you are special, wonderful and amazing, in spite of all the crap you've been through. If you ever doubt it, keep in mind, all that I've said is a secret that I have kept for 15 years, and if not for you, would have most likely kept it secret all my life.
So, yeah, you're awesome, never forget it and I'll never allow you to.
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