I've had another miscarriage. Second one in a year. I feel like I'm never going to be ok again after losing two babies.
It happened over Monday and Tuesday. I was attempting to work today aiming for something normal, but got pushed into an absolute meltdown by a CW/higher up but not direct boss who KNEW I had miscarried again. They were asking me to do something and I told them I wanted a second opinion from the person who is more familiar with what they wanted and I could talk with them Monday when they were in. For some unknown reason, they didn't want to wait. I told them I really didn't feel confident handling it without this other person because I was on the verge of an anxiety attack and could barely breathe. They ignored that and kept going. (This was over a text based internet chat.) I pulled in my boss and he intervened and suggested I take the rest of the day off, but I was a gasping, crying, hyperventilating mess for a while after.
I'm looking for a therapist now. I haven't seen one since before my first miscarriage. I don't know how to cope or process this. It's like it's even worse this time because the grief from the first never really goes away.
I know it happens to a lot of women, but that doesn't help. I've barely been able to breathe all week.
It happened over Monday and Tuesday. I was attempting to work today aiming for something normal, but got pushed into an absolute meltdown by a CW/higher up but not direct boss who KNEW I had miscarried again. They were asking me to do something and I told them I wanted a second opinion from the person who is more familiar with what they wanted and I could talk with them Monday when they were in. For some unknown reason, they didn't want to wait. I told them I really didn't feel confident handling it without this other person because I was on the verge of an anxiety attack and could barely breathe. They ignored that and kept going. (This was over a text based internet chat.) I pulled in my boss and he intervened and suggested I take the rest of the day off, but I was a gasping, crying, hyperventilating mess for a while after.
I'm looking for a therapist now. I haven't seen one since before my first miscarriage. I don't know how to cope or process this. It's like it's even worse this time because the grief from the first never really goes away.
I know it happens to a lot of women, but that doesn't help. I've barely been able to breathe all week.
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