Why I no longer enjoy my dreams...

[Becks]

For a long time, *when* I've remembered my dreams, they were either nightmares, or lies.

I've dealt with that.

The kicker for me, though, was the day my best friend died.

I was sleeping before work, I'm not sure exactly what time...between 2 pm and 9 pm Central, though.

Anyhoo.

He came to me in my dream and said, "Hon, my mom died."
I responded, "No, babe, you did."

I didn't think much of it when I woke up before work and didn't have a text or message on FB from him...sometimes he wouldn't have time before he went to his night job.

I was somewhat concerned when the night passed and no text, and then the next morning, there still wasn't a message for me. (BTW, I don't have FB messenger on my phone.)

I texted him in the am, because he'd either text me while he was at his day job, or after he got out...or sometime between his two jobs.

:crickets chirping:

Well, if you guys want to check my posts in the "Dear..." thread towards the end of July, feel free.

[dalesys]

I hear you. My ex-woof still shows up in my dreams 28 years after (+/- a few days) I answered the door after dark and was served with divorce papers.

I suspect she was shooting for my birthday and overshot.

[Becks]

He still comes into my dreams, but I don't remember what we do, just that he's there.

It sucks.

This man was the other half of my soul.

[BrenDAnn]

I've had dreams like that. Dreamt my dad was in the hospital a full year before he was. Dreamt that I needed to talk to my youngest niece, because someone in her family was sick, right before I found out she herself was the one struggling IRL. They're creepy, and leave me with a feeling of dread and wondering why they happen. As for your friend still being in your dreams, think of it as his way of paying you a visit from time to time, if you care to believe in that sort of thing. I know Mom pops into my dreams sometimes, nearly eight years after her passing away.

[pudddykat]

BrenDAnn I have the same kind of dreams. Weird and creepy.

[Becks]

As for your friend still being in your dreams, think of it as his way of paying you a visit from time to time, if you care to believe in that sort of thing.

I do believe in that, and it helps.

Sort of.

I'd rather have him alive, though.

2 months today.

[RootedPhoenix]

*hugs Becks* <3
*hugs everybody in the thread, too*

[Becks]

Thanks, RP.

This is indescribably tough for me to deal with.

[Marmalady]

He still comes into my dreams, but I don't remember what we do, just that he's there.

It sucks.

This man was the other half of my soul.

Hence the last line of your sig?

(I do understand a little Irish, though I don't claim to be fluent)

Big hugs for you, Becks. Big hugs for everyone who wants someone back again.

[Becks]

Hence the last line of your sig?

Maybe a little, but I originally started calling him that...I'm not even sure anymore, and I don't have the heart or the courage to check...maybe a year ago.

(I do understand a little Irish, though I don't claim to be fluent)

Just like every other language I attempt, I'm horrible at it, but I know a word here and there.

Big hugs for you, Becks. Big hugs for everyone who wants someone back again.

Thank you.