I haven't really talked about this...

[Akasa]

The plan was BFF come out the second week of Nov and stay through the holidays.

The DAY AFTER she arrives I have to take her to the ER because she misplaced her antibiotics on the road. The Dr says "Due to your past medical history I was to do a CT scan."

Yeah, sure, OK.

Well... they found a mass in her lung.

She left right after turkey day, had a biopsy that week, they found a second mass.

Yes it's cancer.

They staged it last week... it's stage 4.

Surgery would be possible if there was only one tumor.

She is refusing chemo and radiation.

At this point they are watching it to see how fast it's growing so they can get a time line on how long she has to live.

I have been sleeping between 4 and 6 hours a night ever since the ER visit.
At stores when they ask "How are you today?" 50/50 I burst into tears. They're just not prepared for THAT!

I've known her longer than I haven't known her. She's the sister I chose.

And she'll be gone soon.

[Food Lady]

My heart just bleeds for you. I'm so sorry this is happening. We're all here for you.

[morgana]

We're all here for you.

This. Please keep us posted.

[Pixelated]

I am so, so sorry ...

[RootedPhoenix]

*hugs you so very much* <3

[Rosco the Iroc]

Make t even sadder it I think she might of known and this was a last visit and she might have been trying to spare you the knowledge.

Sorry to hear this.

[Akasa]

No, she had no clue.
Should have seen her trying to get the doctor's office to see her. "The earliest opening we have is January." *faxes ER paperwork* "Can you come in Monday?"

[Rosco the Iroc]

I got nothing.

[MoonCat]

I'm so sorry! That stinks. {{{hugs}}}

[Akasa]

I've gotten a bit more sleep this week, I think mainly because I was running on fumes.

[DGoddessChardonnay]

So sorry to hear of this. I wish I could offer you some words of comfort, but I'm fresh out.

[Akasa]

She had her appointment with the dr who was supposed to give her an idea of how long she could expect to live. He told her 2 things:

1) Get her affairs in order
2) She could die in a month or a year

Then he scheduled her for a follow up in May.

I want to pull my hair out.

[raw1989]

Im so sorry :-(

[Ree]

I am so sorry.

[Akasa]

Shit kinda hit the fan after that update.

1) my last remaining grandparent went into the hospital. Once they detoxed him they were able to start treatment, but what's this? He can't swallow? They discovered a tumor in his throats and did a biopsy. They're pretty sure it's cancer, but can't say for sure until it comes back.

2) a friend I've had for 20 years, her autistic son took the money he was supposed to use for his dentist appointment and hopped a bus to NYNY with a friend. She hasn't heard from him in almost 2 weeks

3) another friend I've had for 20 years JUST moved into a house with her husband 7y/o and baby... he had a couple heart attacks, and by the time they got him stable enough to run tests he was in a coma. Meningitis. They pulled the plug fuckng VALENTINES DAY!!!

I'm so overwhelmed I fight tears most the day.