RIP David

[SorryIsGoodEnough]

I just found out tonight that one of my ex-boyfriends, a really good friend of mine, passed away on November 4th.

I was wondering why I hadn't heard from him in a while, so I was doing some myspace- and facebook-stalking and I found out on his page and his wife's page.

I'm so upset. I took his virginity, I was special to him and he was special to me.

I feel so horrible. The last thing I ever said to him was a cheap shot about his wife because I was annoyed at him.

I hate myself so much right now. I can't imagine looking at myself in the mirror ever again. I don't deserve happiness.

I'm sorry, David. Rest in peace.

[Hobbs]

There-there. If you're relationship is really as good as you say it was, then I'm sure he forgave you for that cheapshot.

On a lighter side, I hope the girl that takes mine feels that way when I take that final deployment.

[Damien]

hindsight is always 20/20

Please don't be too hard on yourself and give yourself time to grieve and mourn your loss.

Take care

[RootedPhoenix]

*offers hugs* Don't hate yourself. It's impossible to know what life has in store. You couldn't have known.

[Food Lady]

You know, sorry really is good enough. We all say things we regret, but people are capable of forgiveness. Don't beat yourself up.

[SorryIsGoodEnough]

Thanks for the support.

I just really hope it sinks in this time and I learn to treat people better.

[trailerparkmedic]

It sounds like you both knew each other well, so he probably knew why you took a cheap shot. I'm sure he forgave you for being human.

Take care of yourself.