I'm waiting on my admission decisions at a few different schools, and by the end of the month, I'll know whether I'm going to school here at home, in another college in Brooklyn, or another one in Manhattan.
Maybe that decision will be made for me if I don't get accepted at all three, but maybe not.. I'll make that decision when I come to it, when my letters arrive.
What I'm really worried about:
I've always wanted to be one of two things when I grow up. Either a doctor (family practice or mental health) or a veterinarian.
But I have a little problem. I was homeschooled until 10th grade and as a result, I didn't learn math when I was supposed to, because my mom's not good at math either and she taught me various levels of consumers/business math without really getting into algebra or anything.
I'm now in my final year of online schooling, and while cyberschooling sucks worse than anyone could ever know until they're doing it, at least I have teachers to help me with the stuff I don't understand. I've spent two years working my ass off to learn what I didn't learn before.
I've achieved a 68 in Algebra I, a freaking 36 in Algebra II, and a 76 in Geometry. 90-100s in every other class, including science, but I can't even come close to anything but failure in math.
I'm seriously worried that I can't do better than this. I'm not equipped with a math brain and I didn't learn it early enough. I spend hours studying every night, I call my teachers when I need to and attend online conferences for tutoring, and.. I'm still not getting it.
So I'm faced with entering college with a biology, pre-med or pre-vet related major and staring down potential failure.
Or I could roll with mental health and major in psychology, but I'd still have to confront math eventually if I want to go to med school.
Alternatively, I could pick something that I'm interested in as a hobby (writing) and academically really good at, but end up with a job I didn't really want to begin with. I'm not sure how I feel about teaching, and I don't know what else I could do with an English or literature degree.
Ugh, I'm under so much stress about this right now.. I really needed to vent somewhere. I can't sleep, I can't read or do anything without being interrupted by all this thought and worry. If I think about this long enough I start getting physically sick But I need to keep giving it thought until I decide what to do about it! It's vicious.
Has anyone else gone through similar issues with college decisions?
Maybe that decision will be made for me if I don't get accepted at all three, but maybe not.. I'll make that decision when I come to it, when my letters arrive.
What I'm really worried about:
I've always wanted to be one of two things when I grow up. Either a doctor (family practice or mental health) or a veterinarian.
But I have a little problem. I was homeschooled until 10th grade and as a result, I didn't learn math when I was supposed to, because my mom's not good at math either and she taught me various levels of consumers/business math without really getting into algebra or anything.
I'm now in my final year of online schooling, and while cyberschooling sucks worse than anyone could ever know until they're doing it, at least I have teachers to help me with the stuff I don't understand. I've spent two years working my ass off to learn what I didn't learn before.
I've achieved a 68 in Algebra I, a freaking 36 in Algebra II, and a 76 in Geometry. 90-100s in every other class, including science, but I can't even come close to anything but failure in math.
I'm seriously worried that I can't do better than this. I'm not equipped with a math brain and I didn't learn it early enough. I spend hours studying every night, I call my teachers when I need to and attend online conferences for tutoring, and.. I'm still not getting it.
So I'm faced with entering college with a biology, pre-med or pre-vet related major and staring down potential failure.
Or I could roll with mental health and major in psychology, but I'd still have to confront math eventually if I want to go to med school.
Alternatively, I could pick something that I'm interested in as a hobby (writing) and academically really good at, but end up with a job I didn't really want to begin with. I'm not sure how I feel about teaching, and I don't know what else I could do with an English or literature degree.
Ugh, I'm under so much stress about this right now.. I really needed to vent somewhere. I can't sleep, I can't read or do anything without being interrupted by all this thought and worry. If I think about this long enough I start getting physically sick But I need to keep giving it thought until I decide what to do about it! It's vicious.
Has anyone else gone through similar issues with college decisions?
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