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So heres some history. My dad had a massive heart attack about 17-18 years ago. So it killed off 65 % of his heart, leaving just 35% of his heart.So they only gave him 10 years to live, as I said he's still alive 17 years later. His dad had the same kind of heart disease and after his massive heart attack he lived 10 years to the day. Just like the doctor said. So before xmas dad started having blood clots in his leg, they were all exterior. They were able to break them up with meds and rest. Well about two weeks ago he developed another one, this time interior. So they put him on these shots for 10 days at 100.00 a shot.And of course insurance wouldn't cover it, so my dad was freaking out and how he could never afford this .
His boss found out about this and gave my dad the money(no strings attached) for the shots. I should mention that this awesome boss also gave my dad his full paycheck for the full year and a half that dad was off work for his first HA. So dad has been on the shots and the blood clot is slowing breaking up. But the problem is that dad is rapidly getting worse by the day. In the last three months I have watched him go down. He just told us yesterday that he goes back to the doctor this friday and he is going to ask to be put on disability. He can't make it through a full work day.
He is showing all the signs that my grandpa did right before he died. So I have been going down almost everynight to spend even a hour with dad. I will be surprised if he makes it another year or two. I so fricking scared.
His boss found out about this and gave my dad the money(no strings attached) for the shots. I should mention that this awesome boss also gave my dad his full paycheck for the full year and a half that dad was off work for his first HA. So dad has been on the shots and the blood clot is slowing breaking up. But the problem is that dad is rapidly getting worse by the day. In the last three months I have watched him go down. He just told us yesterday that he goes back to the doctor this friday and he is going to ask to be put on disability. He can't make it through a full work day.
He is showing all the signs that my grandpa did right before he died. So I have been going down almost everynight to spend even a hour with dad. I will be surprised if he makes it another year or two. I so fricking scared.
He is my Black Dragon (and yes, a good one) strong, protective, the guardian. I am his Silver Dragon, always by his side, shining for him, cherishing him.
I'm sorry you're so scared. I'd never want what your dad's going through for anyone, especially if I cared about them. 
) It's hard... it's something that even the smartest, wisest people in the world have difficulty wrestling with (Buddha, bazillions of philosophers, the big names in Judaism, Christianity, the list goes on)-- so never ever feel like you're less or stupid because you're freaking out about losing someone you love-- especially your dad, someone who's been like... a wall or a blanket or the sky for you and your life. It's big.
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