Not about a specific job, but about working.
As you know, I was fired after a month on the job. I made a post about it on here.
Here's the thing... this is the third time. Now, I've posted about the last two jobs, and information on the last job. All of them were stressful to the maximum they can manage. Now my husband says that none of it was my fault and it was all theirs (all of these places are places that have screwed him over in the past). He knows what happened including things I never shared on here.
The problem is, I lost the job last Thursday. And its not about them really. It's about me. Even the thought of going back to work brings me to tears. Even the thought of applying for jobs brings me to tears. My heart starts pounding and I start to feel panic. I have applied for unemployment yes. And I don't like this feeling, not one bit. I'm so scared its going to happen again. I keep thinking that it must be me. Three jobs since I moved to the United States. It only happened once to me in Canada, but three times now. And I know much much more than I ever did living there.
Have you ever felt panic at even the thought of applying for jobs?
I'm so tired of being treated like dirt. Over and over again here. Walked on, talked to like I'm a slave or worthless. And the manager directly above me always seems to be a dumbass that's getting away with their horrible behavior.
I'm actually scared to go back to work. It's been so ego bruising. I feel like I want to hide in my house and never leave.
My husband says its ok, that he understands and loves me. He says he knows I'm burned out and we will be ok. But even typing this here has brought me to tears.
And I am so scared. I'm almost 40 years old, and have gone nowhere in my chosen career, and every time I try to, something happens so that I lose everything I've been working for.
Why is it that assholes get away with murder at a job but I always get shit on for doing what I'm told or even trying to think ahead.
As you know, I was fired after a month on the job. I made a post about it on here.
Here's the thing... this is the third time. Now, I've posted about the last two jobs, and information on the last job. All of them were stressful to the maximum they can manage. Now my husband says that none of it was my fault and it was all theirs (all of these places are places that have screwed him over in the past). He knows what happened including things I never shared on here.
The problem is, I lost the job last Thursday. And its not about them really. It's about me. Even the thought of going back to work brings me to tears. Even the thought of applying for jobs brings me to tears. My heart starts pounding and I start to feel panic. I have applied for unemployment yes. And I don't like this feeling, not one bit. I'm so scared its going to happen again. I keep thinking that it must be me. Three jobs since I moved to the United States. It only happened once to me in Canada, but three times now. And I know much much more than I ever did living there.
Have you ever felt panic at even the thought of applying for jobs?
I'm so tired of being treated like dirt. Over and over again here. Walked on, talked to like I'm a slave or worthless. And the manager directly above me always seems to be a dumbass that's getting away with their horrible behavior.
I'm actually scared to go back to work. It's been so ego bruising. I feel like I want to hide in my house and never leave.
My husband says its ok, that he understands and loves me. He says he knows I'm burned out and we will be ok. But even typing this here has brought me to tears.
And I am so scared. I'm almost 40 years old, and have gone nowhere in my chosen career, and every time I try to, something happens so that I lose everything I've been working for.
Why is it that assholes get away with murder at a job but I always get shit on for doing what I'm told or even trying to think ahead.
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