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As many of you know, I've had some problems with the "management" of the company where I do most of my work.
Some time ago, one of these people (the one I call Dumb) told me that we would be having a meeting to discuss further "cooperation". (Dumb does not cooperate. Dumb tells you what to do and won't take any arguments. Dumb does not even listen to suggestions.)
Well, as you also know, I experienced a family tragedy recently. Last week's breakdown was precipitated, in large part, by Dumb's antics. I have a feeling she has been telling others to pass on to her any problems they may have with me, rather than suggesting that they find their own solutions. One of the other suppliers told me that Dumb and Dumber have been encouraging many people to spy on each other, and that the atmosphere in that area is truly awful.
So. I'm back at work after last week's all-consuming breakdown. And what do I get today?
An email from Dumb, asking me when I can meet for a discussion on further "cooperation".
I'm panicking now. I realize that if she were trying to boot me out of working for this company, she would have just said it - "Your services will no longer be required", or something like that. I still have a sick feeling about this, though. I don't trust this woman as far as I can throw her. And I don't want to see her; I can't stand the sight of her.
I have come to realize that I have the same qualities that she has, and that this has been one of my problems with her. I want things to go the way they were before she oozed onto the scene. In other words, I want my own way. I want to call the shots. I don't want arguments. I'm not willing to compromise. (Though I have, as a matter of fact, compromised on many issues.)
I do want to leave this place. Oh, how I want to leave! I'm sending my CV out to any company that looks good. But I want it to be my decision, with people actually being sorry to see me go. I don't know why that's important to me, but it is. If I got my dream job today, I'd send Dumb an email that no meeting would be necessary, since I'm out of here. The same would be true if I came into a large amount of money.
However, this is not the case, as far as I know, and I'm freaking out. I'm going to put off the meeting as long as I can, pretending that Dumb actually has a soul and a conscience and will understand that it's too soon. If I actually say this in my response, it might work.
Maybe.
I just don't get it. Five years of watching Mom go downhill, then the events of last month, now this. Does it never end? Ever?
Some time ago, one of these people (the one I call Dumb) told me that we would be having a meeting to discuss further "cooperation". (Dumb does not cooperate. Dumb tells you what to do and won't take any arguments. Dumb does not even listen to suggestions.)
Well, as you also know, I experienced a family tragedy recently. Last week's breakdown was precipitated, in large part, by Dumb's antics. I have a feeling she has been telling others to pass on to her any problems they may have with me, rather than suggesting that they find their own solutions. One of the other suppliers told me that Dumb and Dumber have been encouraging many people to spy on each other, and that the atmosphere in that area is truly awful.
So. I'm back at work after last week's all-consuming breakdown. And what do I get today?
An email from Dumb, asking me when I can meet for a discussion on further "cooperation".
I'm panicking now. I realize that if she were trying to boot me out of working for this company, she would have just said it - "Your services will no longer be required", or something like that. I still have a sick feeling about this, though. I don't trust this woman as far as I can throw her. And I don't want to see her; I can't stand the sight of her.
I have come to realize that I have the same qualities that she has, and that this has been one of my problems with her. I want things to go the way they were before she oozed onto the scene. In other words, I want my own way. I want to call the shots. I don't want arguments. I'm not willing to compromise. (Though I have, as a matter of fact, compromised on many issues.)
I do want to leave this place. Oh, how I want to leave! I'm sending my CV out to any company that looks good. But I want it to be my decision, with people actually being sorry to see me go. I don't know why that's important to me, but it is. If I got my dream job today, I'd send Dumb an email that no meeting would be necessary, since I'm out of here. The same would be true if I came into a large amount of money.
However, this is not the case, as far as I know, and I'm freaking out. I'm going to put off the meeting as long as I can, pretending that Dumb actually has a soul and a conscience and will understand that it's too soon. If I actually say this in my response, it might work.
Maybe.
I just don't get it. Five years of watching Mom go downhill, then the events of last month, now this. Does it never end? Ever?
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