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Warning : Rambling will follow.
For awhile, has been hard to keep anything down. I know there is not much that can be done about that, been through it all before. Last time, it actually saved my life, but that doesn't mean it is fun..at all.
It starts off innocently enough. No greasy foods, or it will just come right back up. Easy enough to avoid. Then comes the randomness. Grilled (non-greasy) chicken? No problem. Berries? No..can't keep those down. Wait..now berries are ok, but chicken is not? Make up my mind.
It keeps getting worse, I am now at that "Good luck keeping water down, let alone anything else" stage. Still have absolutely random times I can eat whatever I want, other times..can't even keep down water. Water!. Medicines don't help, I can take all the 'acid reflux' meds in the world and it doesn't help.
Last time this happened I was 305 lbs, and getting bigger constantly. It saved my life..I know that sounds weird, but it did. Would have just eaten myself to death. It subsided once I got some Phenegren and lost a lot of weight, and I am loosing a lot of weight again...so I am hoping it will get better once I've lost some more weight. Just unhealthy to lose it like this.
I know it is made worse by stress. Management at my job has it's head where the sun doesn't shine, and have been trying to pressure me not to take my vacation. Vacation I NEED to get away from all the STRESS.
Dad's bipolor episodes are getting worse. Some of his prior episodes are bad. Along the tunes of I am the worthless illegitimate child of an African-American (I won't say what he ACTUALLY called me, that is the 'nice' version). Problem is when he isn't in his own paranoid delusional place he is one of the NICEST people you will ever meet. Total strangers have called him Pa (southern word for dad if you don't know). Since I WON'T let him live on the street, I have no idea what the heck to do when he gets like this..
I sleep way to much, between my NASH and Diabetes I have NO energy..and the stress keeps piling on top of that. I just wish it was the healthy sleep, instead of the tossing/turning type. Gah I am rambling, and I know this isn't the place..just need it OUT of my head.
For awhile, has been hard to keep anything down. I know there is not much that can be done about that, been through it all before. Last time, it actually saved my life, but that doesn't mean it is fun..at all.
It starts off innocently enough. No greasy foods, or it will just come right back up. Easy enough to avoid. Then comes the randomness. Grilled (non-greasy) chicken? No problem. Berries? No..can't keep those down. Wait..now berries are ok, but chicken is not? Make up my mind.
It keeps getting worse, I am now at that "Good luck keeping water down, let alone anything else" stage. Still have absolutely random times I can eat whatever I want, other times..can't even keep down water. Water!. Medicines don't help, I can take all the 'acid reflux' meds in the world and it doesn't help.
Last time this happened I was 305 lbs, and getting bigger constantly. It saved my life..I know that sounds weird, but it did. Would have just eaten myself to death. It subsided once I got some Phenegren and lost a lot of weight, and I am loosing a lot of weight again...so I am hoping it will get better once I've lost some more weight. Just unhealthy to lose it like this.
I know it is made worse by stress. Management at my job has it's head where the sun doesn't shine, and have been trying to pressure me not to take my vacation. Vacation I NEED to get away from all the STRESS.
Dad's bipolor episodes are getting worse. Some of his prior episodes are bad. Along the tunes of I am the worthless illegitimate child of an African-American (I won't say what he ACTUALLY called me, that is the 'nice' version). Problem is when he isn't in his own paranoid delusional place he is one of the NICEST people you will ever meet. Total strangers have called him Pa (southern word for dad if you don't know). Since I WON'T let him live on the street, I have no idea what the heck to do when he gets like this..
I sleep way to much, between my NASH and Diabetes I have NO energy..and the stress keeps piling on top of that. I just wish it was the healthy sleep, instead of the tossing/turning type. Gah I am rambling, and I know this isn't the place..just need it OUT of my head.
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