Up until now, I've been putting a decision like this off, but a long list of realizations have just hit me like a bus.
Long story short: my girlfriend wants to get married.
She and I have been together for three years, and she already knows what kind of a romantic past I have, especially two engagements that ended up hitting the wall hard enough to bring me close to giving up completely. Up until recently, she's accepted the fact that the thought of being a husband instead of a boyfriend scares the fuck out of me.
We had a talk last weekend about marriage. She told me point-blank that she wants to get married, and that got a conversation going. My biggest worry right now is that this is going to have the same effect that my previous two had: slow, steady decline into a heated breakup and descent into a very long gloomy mindset.
I'm split right now. I love her dearly and I want to marry her, but... I want to go for it, because three years of dating, two of those living together, is more than enough time to help me make a choice. I'm just scared that the engagement is going to result in three years down the drain.
Long story short: my girlfriend wants to get married.
She and I have been together for three years, and she already knows what kind of a romantic past I have, especially two engagements that ended up hitting the wall hard enough to bring me close to giving up completely. Up until recently, she's accepted the fact that the thought of being a husband instead of a boyfriend scares the fuck out of me.
We had a talk last weekend about marriage. She told me point-blank that she wants to get married, and that got a conversation going. My biggest worry right now is that this is going to have the same effect that my previous two had: slow, steady decline into a heated breakup and descent into a very long gloomy mindset.
I'm split right now. I love her dearly and I want to marry her, but... I want to go for it, because three years of dating, two of those living together, is more than enough time to help me make a choice. I'm just scared that the engagement is going to result in three years down the drain.
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