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All this stuff happened and I got stressed out, only to find later it wasn't what I thought it was. Or something. Let me explain:
--First, I had a back strain [my fault for offering to hold friend's baby, I admit, but she's so cute!] yesterday that worked it's way up my spine to my head. I was up half the night with an excruciating headache nothing would take away, and I had an early shift today, which I'm not used to. I close a lot.
--After a cumulative total of 5 hours sleep, I went to work. I was already grumpy because I had checked the schedule yesterday and found that week after next I'm scheduled a whopping 13 hours. Every time this happens, God takes care of it, but I don't know; I was doubting. So I was grumpy.
--I walked in to see that even though they are slashing hours, and some of my coworkers are not even on the schedule, we had 2 cashiers training. Right away I said something to my coworker about it, very negatively. I really shouldn't have vented to her. It just put me in a bad light.
--Some time later another coworker told me the new people were seasonal, just for back to school. We've never done that, so it's good, as BTS always makes my carpal tunnel act up with all the workload. So, cool. But then I recognized one of the trainees; she'd worked at our store before. I said hi to her and asked if she was temporary for BTS. Nope--permanent. Ok, so I'm not getting hours and we're hiring. Now I was really annoyed, and my customers sensed it, and I don't like making them uncomfortable. I just couldn't vent.
--On top of it, I got mixed up and was 1/2 hour late. It's not like me, and if I slip up, it's no big deal. They realize with our wildly changing schedules this sometimes happens. And I had no problem with the supervisor letting me know. I didn't even mind being told in front of a customer. But I did mind that it made my customer very uncomfortable. It was just unprofessional to be interrupted for this while helping someone. It made us look bad. Hope I don't get a bad customer survey for it.
--So I was going to post the above on my break, except that I couldn't get into my locker. Luckily I'd brought my lunch, so I didn't need my wallet. I did need my pain pills. I asked if there was anyone who could get the electronic key to unlock it. No one was available because we had a visit. At noon on a Friday. I was so mad. It was my fault that my finger slipped when punching in my code, so I had no idea what code to punch in to open it. It happens. But I was annoyed someone couldn't take 30 seconds to help me out. And I was in the hallway fuming and doing this calming thing I do--I try to blow my frustration out my mouth/nose. A coworker from another dept/shift walked by and starting mocking me with huffing and puffing. I mean, what was it to him anyway? He could've just ignored me altogether. I never even run across him nor speak to him.
--After work I found out that the new girl who is permanent is for electronics. She's not taking my hours. I felt bad for getting angry about it. And on top of it, another cashier offered me two of her shifts. Between that and another shift I took, I went from 13 hours to 27. Stuff like that always happens, yet I get frustrated.
I did realize something: my basic needs will be taken care of, but I am complacent. Every time hours go up, I decide I don't need to look for another job. I do, though. They keep jerking us around, and I keep falling for it.
--First, I had a back strain [my fault for offering to hold friend's baby, I admit, but she's so cute!] yesterday that worked it's way up my spine to my head. I was up half the night with an excruciating headache nothing would take away, and I had an early shift today, which I'm not used to. I close a lot.
--After a cumulative total of 5 hours sleep, I went to work. I was already grumpy because I had checked the schedule yesterday and found that week after next I'm scheduled a whopping 13 hours. Every time this happens, God takes care of it, but I don't know; I was doubting. So I was grumpy.
--I walked in to see that even though they are slashing hours, and some of my coworkers are not even on the schedule, we had 2 cashiers training. Right away I said something to my coworker about it, very negatively. I really shouldn't have vented to her. It just put me in a bad light.
--Some time later another coworker told me the new people were seasonal, just for back to school. We've never done that, so it's good, as BTS always makes my carpal tunnel act up with all the workload. So, cool. But then I recognized one of the trainees; she'd worked at our store before. I said hi to her and asked if she was temporary for BTS. Nope--permanent. Ok, so I'm not getting hours and we're hiring. Now I was really annoyed, and my customers sensed it, and I don't like making them uncomfortable. I just couldn't vent.
--On top of it, I got mixed up and was 1/2 hour late. It's not like me, and if I slip up, it's no big deal. They realize with our wildly changing schedules this sometimes happens. And I had no problem with the supervisor letting me know. I didn't even mind being told in front of a customer. But I did mind that it made my customer very uncomfortable. It was just unprofessional to be interrupted for this while helping someone. It made us look bad. Hope I don't get a bad customer survey for it.
--So I was going to post the above on my break, except that I couldn't get into my locker. Luckily I'd brought my lunch, so I didn't need my wallet. I did need my pain pills. I asked if there was anyone who could get the electronic key to unlock it. No one was available because we had a visit. At noon on a Friday. I was so mad. It was my fault that my finger slipped when punching in my code, so I had no idea what code to punch in to open it. It happens. But I was annoyed someone couldn't take 30 seconds to help me out. And I was in the hallway fuming and doing this calming thing I do--I try to blow my frustration out my mouth/nose. A coworker from another dept/shift walked by and starting mocking me with huffing and puffing. I mean, what was it to him anyway? He could've just ignored me altogether. I never even run across him nor speak to him.
--After work I found out that the new girl who is permanent is for electronics. She's not taking my hours. I felt bad for getting angry about it. And on top of it, another cashier offered me two of her shifts. Between that and another shift I took, I went from 13 hours to 27. Stuff like that always happens, yet I get frustrated.
I did realize something: my basic needs will be taken care of, but I am complacent. Every time hours go up, I decide I don't need to look for another job. I do, though. They keep jerking us around, and I keep falling for it.
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