Today (in about 30 minutes) I finally start training behind the bar at The Bar. Tomorrow I work my first solo shift at the upstairs bar. This is what I wanted, this is what I have been working toward, and also that hopefully, sometime in the not too distant future, I can JUST be behind the bar, and not serving tables.
And as I am every time I start something new, I am a bit nervous.
I know I can do this, I know I can handle this, I know I have all the requisite skills.
And yet I am plagued by self-doubt. Somehow I will screw this up, piss off the other bartenders, disappoint my boss, irritate the wrong customer, do something monumentally stupid and/or wrong right as Big Boss Man walks in unexpectedly (even though he is not due in town until the end of the month), etc., etc., etc.
You know, the usual shit.
Ah, the fun of starting fresh all over again!
Okay, off to enable the drunks! Later, kids!
And as I am every time I start something new, I am a bit nervous.
I know I can do this, I know I can handle this, I know I have all the requisite skills.
And yet I am plagued by self-doubt. Somehow I will screw this up, piss off the other bartenders, disappoint my boss, irritate the wrong customer, do something monumentally stupid and/or wrong right as Big Boss Man walks in unexpectedly (even though he is not due in town until the end of the month), etc., etc., etc.
You know, the usual shit.
Ah, the fun of starting fresh all over again!
Okay, off to enable the drunks! Later, kids!



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