Oh, my kitty

[Eireann]

Kitty just went to the litterbox. She was there for a long time. Then she threw up.

I gave her the stomach medicine that I still have; the rest has been used. And I took a good look at her. She's thin. Her nose is congested. She hasn't been eating. She's a little shaky.

I didn't want it to be like this. I'm almost out of money, and now, I think I have to take her to the vet. One last time. One last trip to that place she hates so much.

She's fought so hard. She's been through so much in the years I've had her. I only hope that I gave her the best life she could have had. When I adopted her, she was so scared of people that it took months before I could get close enough to pet her. She's never been a lap cat; I can count, on one hand, the times she has sat in my lap.

She's the best kitty I've ever had. She's smart, she's full of personality, and she's beautiful.

Since the beginning of 2008, I've experienced six deaths. I thought I would have her with me longer. I thought she would stay with me.

Why am I still here? Why haven't I been taken? What reason is there for me to go on?

[teh_blumchenkinder]

I only hope that I gave her the best life she could have had.
....
She's the best kitty I've ever had. She's smart, she's full of personality, and she's beautiful.

Oh, kitty.
I'm positive you did. You may yet have more. Even if you don't...
Don't ever forget that love. I'm not saying that you won't... but when there's something aside from the hurt, remember it.

[dragon_wings]

to you and kitty.

[MaggieTheCat]

*offers lots of hugs*

[blas]

I'm so sorry this is happening to your kitty

[Sonoma]

Hugs

[Food Lady]

Sorry, Eirann.

[BeenThereDoneThat]

I'm very sorry...both that the kitty is suffering and that you are in such pain watching her suffer and dreading losing her. I wish you both peace. *hugs*

[Marmalady]

Hugs for you, and gentle pets for kitty.

I'm so sorry, Eireann.

[Kara]

I'm so sorry to hear she's sick again. *hugs* to you and kitty.

And, hey, don't be so hard on yourself. You answered your own question, about why you're here. You adopted a cat who was so terrified of people that she couldn't even be touched. And you gave her so much love and kindness, that she became the best cat you ever had.

That's a special kind of caring. You are a special kind of person. You adopted this cat who probably didn't have much of a life.... and gave her a long, happy, and loving life. The best life anyone could have provided for her. So you can go on knowing that you did your very best for her and have no doubt that not a day went by that she didn't know you loved her.

[Eireann]

I've been telling her every day how much I love her, and how much she has added to my life. As I type this, she's in her little bed, eyes half-open. A few minutes ago, she was watching Other Kitty jump up in the window to sit in the sun. I think she wanted to be doing the same.

I think that medicine was helping, but I've run out of it, and I'm so low on cash that I doubt I can afford more. And even if I could, it would mean that I'd have to keep giving her the medicine twice a day, every day - for how long? She hates taking it. She even hurried away from me this morning when I came towards her with the stuff.

When I was a kid, and I didn't like the way things were going, I would say, "That's not fair!"

My mom invariably replied, "LIFE isn't fair."

This certainly isn't fair.

[Lady_Pigeon]

Sorry to hear about your baby. Know that we all wish she'd recover, but that we're here for you should something happen.

[Seshat]

When the time comes for our cat, we're hoping to be able to arrange for the vet to come here. She'll be on one of my husband's shirts (she loves sleeping on his shirts, and he's keeping old ones just for this purpose). The vet can put her to sleep while she's sitting on a shirt that smells of family, and we can bury her in that shirt.

I hope you can come to some similar arrangement with your vet.

[draggar]

Do you know why our pets live such short lives?

Because they wouldn't be able to handle the loss of us.

I'm sure she had one of the best lives possible.

[Cat]

So sorry to hear about kitty . She is obviously loved, I can tell you gave her a great life