Especially since I saw this article today:
https://www.yahoo.com/now/covid-coul...084337273.html
Thankfully, I have a job where I work remotely for the indefinite future. I'm extremely grateful for that. The above link, however, is really messing with me mentally, and messing with my hope for the future.
I'm in my mid 40's. I've gotten the full, available course of COVID vaccines (two initial doses, plus two boosters). There's an Omicron-specific booster in the works that's supposed to come out in the fall. I know my wife will want me to get it, and she and our son likely will want to get it too.
The biggest problem is that we all have underlying conditions. My son seems content to stay in our house and not go anywhere indefinitely. He even mentions that he doesn't want to go in our back yard (which is fenced in). And right now, we interact with as few people as possible.
I don't really know how my wife feels. I get mixed signals from her sometimes. I do curbside for groceries, and the only time I really go inside a place is when I have a doctor's appointment or need to pick up a prescription. It's really saddening to me. I think my wife understands that. But I don't do a lot of what I'd like to because she requests that I don't.
With the article above, and COVID numbers on the rise in my area, it's really messing with me mentally and emotionally. I've started journaling, and that helps a little. My hopefulness for going places/doing things is seriously waning for the foreseeable future, almost to the point where I don't even think I should really bother even wanting do do any of it. It's almost like I feel like I'm alive but I'm not living. If that makes sense. It actually borders on depressing. And I feel like I can't do anything about it.
I don't want to use the words "giving up", but that's what it seems like I'm doing with most of this. I almost feel trapped. And it really pains me, because I don't see any end in sight, and I don't want to not do a lot of these things for another three years.
Over the past 2.5 years, I've "missed" (i.e. listened on the radio) two seasons of the local sports team. I've wanted to go to baseball games for the local pro baseball team. I've missed a couple of concerts I've wanted to go to, and a couple of motorsports events.
I can't remember the last time we actually went into a restaurant and sat down to eat. The only interactions I have with people at restaurants are drive-thrus or if I'm doing some kind of pick-up, and I'm wearing a mask. When I go to pick up prescriptions, I feel incredibly self-conscious because I am one of the very few wearing a mask in the store.
I'm just struggling with all this mentally right now.
Thanks for reading.
https://www.yahoo.com/now/covid-coul...084337273.html
Thankfully, I have a job where I work remotely for the indefinite future. I'm extremely grateful for that. The above link, however, is really messing with me mentally, and messing with my hope for the future.
I'm in my mid 40's. I've gotten the full, available course of COVID vaccines (two initial doses, plus two boosters). There's an Omicron-specific booster in the works that's supposed to come out in the fall. I know my wife will want me to get it, and she and our son likely will want to get it too.
The biggest problem is that we all have underlying conditions. My son seems content to stay in our house and not go anywhere indefinitely. He even mentions that he doesn't want to go in our back yard (which is fenced in). And right now, we interact with as few people as possible.
I don't really know how my wife feels. I get mixed signals from her sometimes. I do curbside for groceries, and the only time I really go inside a place is when I have a doctor's appointment or need to pick up a prescription. It's really saddening to me. I think my wife understands that. But I don't do a lot of what I'd like to because she requests that I don't.
With the article above, and COVID numbers on the rise in my area, it's really messing with me mentally and emotionally. I've started journaling, and that helps a little. My hopefulness for going places/doing things is seriously waning for the foreseeable future, almost to the point where I don't even think I should really bother even wanting do do any of it. It's almost like I feel like I'm alive but I'm not living. If that makes sense. It actually borders on depressing. And I feel like I can't do anything about it.
I don't want to use the words "giving up", but that's what it seems like I'm doing with most of this. I almost feel trapped. And it really pains me, because I don't see any end in sight, and I don't want to not do a lot of these things for another three years.
Over the past 2.5 years, I've "missed" (i.e. listened on the radio) two seasons of the local sports team. I've wanted to go to baseball games for the local pro baseball team. I've missed a couple of concerts I've wanted to go to, and a couple of motorsports events.
I can't remember the last time we actually went into a restaurant and sat down to eat. The only interactions I have with people at restaurants are drive-thrus or if I'm doing some kind of pick-up, and I'm wearing a mask. When I go to pick up prescriptions, I feel incredibly self-conscious because I am one of the very few wearing a mask in the store.
I'm just struggling with all this mentally right now.
Thanks for reading.
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