I'm A Loser Baby, So Why Don't You Kill Me?

[Magpie]

I'd give your friends who wanted you go to the music festival some credit - they invited you to an event that didn't involve getting trashed. Yes, it would have been nice if they'd remembered that money is tight, but bear in mind that some people honestly don't get how to spend money wisely. You might be stuck though - if your boyfriend and your friends don't mature soon, and stop trying to commit slow suicide by liver failure, you're just going to grow apart.

[blas]

What irks me the most are the things I've been hearing lately. It really hurts my feelings. Alcohol aside, it's like I'm not allowed to want to be alone or just sit inside for a few days. I damn well know summer is flying by and almost over, but after being nearly reduced to tears (which hardly ever happens to me at work) last week, I needed some extra rest. And quite frankly, I deal with so much noise all week not to mention screaming and hysteria from shift leads and first shifters and management, that the last place I want to be is where the music is blaring and people are being loud and obnoxious. I'm not a damn hermit, I just wanted a little time to be quiet and mellow.

My bf has a drinking problem, it's no surprise. I've been with him for almost two years. He has, though, had the respect to never ask for a dime from me to support his habbit or asked for my sympathy when he'd get in trouble. I can at least respect that. For a long time, we were going great by trying other things, because I've been on the no-boat for quite a while. He was most upset of all that I was taking out my anger on work on him, which is fair, I hate when people do that to me, but when you know how to press my buttons, don't do it. I know what makes him tick and try not to do it, he should do the same. He should have understood I wanted some peace and quiet, and no, drinking wouldn't mellow me out.

My friend pushed me to the edge. I told her before I even bought my car that going out is NOT an option anymore, we'd have to stick to other things, besides I'm tired of bars anyway, and she didn't get it. So it was bitchy of me, I purposely fell asleep so I wouldn't have to go to the bar that night. Of course she was irate and screaming at me. Sure, I'm a partial hypocrite because I hate being ditched, but when you have been told NO over and over, when I refuse every bar invite.....this is the only way to guarantee she'll stop it. If I lose her forever, meh, I've lost better friends to worse things.

Some of my coworkers are my best of friends. Most of them are quite older than me, but at least they can have intelligent adult conversations and not always about getting trashed or being obsessed with alcohol being everywhere they go. In all honesty, they are worth keeping more. Even though we don't see one another that often outside of work because they have families and other committments, it's nice to know at least some people respect me.

I don't think I'm a snob or a bitch. When you get tired of being asked the same thing and your opinion disrespected over and over again, you lose it. I have offered time after time after time to do other things. Friends make up excuses as to no, they can't. But then turn it around "Oh hey let's go to the bar tonight!" NO GOD DAMMIT!!!!!!!!

Oh, must add: The country music festival is nothing but a drunk fest, aside from listening to live country music stars. You should see footage from the grounds when it's over. I don't like country music, 1, everyone I know knows that, and 2......being around several thousand drunk people.....no.

Maybe I'm just getting a little too mature too quickly, but once you realize stuff costs money and it's not fun to be hungover all the time....oh wait, they'll never learn.

[Becks]

Blas, come to GB. Bella and I will take you bowling.

Maybe we can convince Irv to come up here for it.

[blas]

It'd take me about 3 hours to get there, so we'd have to make a whole day out of it.

How about you guys come here so my tired butt can sleep while I wait for ya'll? There's a water park here. Nothing like Noah's Ark or anything but it's good enough for even a night's getaway.

[Becks]

Oooooh, tempting.

[blas]

Or maybe we can just plan on both

The zoo here is a lot of fun. I like to imitate the snorting noises of the buffallo and tease the monkeys.

And it's always fun to watch Bear the dog inadvertently piss off every type of water fowl there is.

[Becks]

Even more tempting.

Must see when we have a mutual day off.

Working retail, not always easy to schedule stuff...

[blas]

Understandable.

I have the same schedule every week, but there is always a chance every week that the manager will try to add in weekend overtime. It was every other weekend for quite a while, but now the cycle has been broken. I hate not knowing.

[taxguykarl]

Maybe I'm just getting a little too mature too quickly, but once you realize stuff costs money and it's not fun to be hungover all the time....oh wait, they'll never learn.

Not only maturity but a sense of priorities. I agree that food, transportation, and a residence take president over fun.

I've seen 50 y.o.'s with gorgeous wardrobes, all the latest greatest electronics and are (along with their kids )well versed in the plot lines of television shows exclusive to premium channels--many of whom pulling down less than $40k.
I have a CW who has been in the hospital more than a week. He talked about little more than getting blasted and/or high. I can't recall seeing him put anything in his foul mouth that was not either over-processed or deep-fried. He is under 50 y.o. and we all doubt that he will live to 60.

Remember how they treated you when they start looking for a liver for transplant. Rember who'll be asking whom for a loan to go bar-hopping.

[blas]

I'll be asking for a lung transplant around the same time, so we'll be even.

My main concern is more of them all becoming like some of my relatives. One of my cousins (granted, he binges every day, not just weekends) is so bad that he can barely put together a coherent sentence.

As cruel as they've been to me lately, it would break my heart to think of them growing to be in their 30s, 40s, etc, drooling and barely able to put words together or have any of their soul left because it's all been poisoned and they are just robots with drinks in hand.

A lot of things you do when you're young can affect you when you're old. I don't want to see people I care about ending up like some of my relatives. The ones that are still able to function are just the meanest, cruelest, evil people alive that only live to drink and talk shit.

[Plaidman]

It's likely they may go down that path, as harsh as it sounds Blas.

You might want to attempt to talk to them about it.

[AdminAssistant]

A lot of things you do when you're young can affect you when you're old. I don't want to see people I care about ending up like some of my relatives. The ones that are still able to function are just the meanest, cruelest, evil people alive that only live to drink and talk shit.

How do you know my father?

You aren't too mature, you're just right for your age. I did all of my hard partying when I was 19-22. By the time 23 rolled around I thought, "Well, that's enough of that." I still have fun while doing things that don't involve spending $$$ to feel sick the next day.

[Irving Patrick Freleigh]

Blas, come to GB. Bella and I will take you bowling.

Maybe we can convince Irv to come up here for it.

Hey, I bowl! Poorly.

[Seshat]

What irks me the most are the things I've been hearing lately. It really hurts my feelings. Alcohol aside, it's like I'm not allowed to want to be alone or just sit inside for a few days.

Been there, heard that.

Blas, you need new friends. Join a bowling league, or take a community college course, or do something that will regularly put you in touch with people with attitudes and interests that more closely match yours.

And, of course, stay in touch here.

[BookstoreEscapee]

Hey, I bowl! Poorly.

I'll kick all yer asses!