Some of you may have read my post about the guy in calculus that I like. Well, I have tried multiple times to walk over to him and talk to him, but I always walk out the door instead. I am physically incapable of talking to him. It's not just him either. I don't have any friends because I'm quiet and people don't talk to me, so I don't talk to them. I want to get over this and be a normal person with friends and a boyfriend, but I can't do it.
This isn't a case of can't=won't or can't=don't want to. I physically can't talk to people. I get nervous and scared and I make myself feel like crap until I convince myself that no one will ever enjoy my company, so why bother. With guys I like, I blush really easily around them and blushing makes me feel awkward and uncomfortable. I grew up with men in my life making me feel like I'm not good enough, so I believed I wan't good enough. I had a number of people make fun of me for blushing throughout my life, so I'm uncomfortable about that too.
Some people have told me to just go talk to someone, but it's impossible for me. With potentail friends, I worry that they will wonder why I'm talking to them. With potential boyfriends, I'm afraid that I will start blushing and they will laugh at me. I want to be normal, but I don't know what else to do. Any ideas?
This isn't a case of can't=won't or can't=don't want to. I physically can't talk to people. I get nervous and scared and I make myself feel like crap until I convince myself that no one will ever enjoy my company, so why bother. With guys I like, I blush really easily around them and blushing makes me feel awkward and uncomfortable. I grew up with men in my life making me feel like I'm not good enough, so I believed I wan't good enough. I had a number of people make fun of me for blushing throughout my life, so I'm uncomfortable about that too.
Some people have told me to just go talk to someone, but it's impossible for me. With potentail friends, I worry that they will wonder why I'm talking to them. With potential boyfriends, I'm afraid that I will start blushing and they will laugh at me. I want to be normal, but I don't know what else to do. Any ideas?
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